What is real?

Devotions were rather intriguing today. Who I Am In Christ? by Neil T. Anderson was a gift from mum. Today's was I am a friend in Christ and they were explaining what a friend means. And how much Jesus is of a friend to us, the very best kind btw. And he what it takes to love a brother as a friend is to be real; hence he quotes "The Velveteen Rabbit"

“What is real?” asked the Rabbit one day. “Does it mean having things that buzz inside and a stick-out handle?”

            “Real isn’t how you are made,” said the Skin Horse “It’s a thing that happens to you when a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but really loves you, then you become real.”

            “Does it hurt?” asked the Rabbit.

            “Sometimes,” said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. “When you are real you don’t mind being hurt.”

            “Does it happen all at once like being wound up?” he asked, “or bit by bit?

            “It doesn’t happen all at once. You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or have to be carefully kept. Generally by the time you are real, most of your hair has been loved, your eyes drop out, and you get loose in the joints, and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are real you can’t be ugly, except to the people who don’t understand.”

Plenty to ponder on.

What is real?

Devotions were rather intriguing today. Who I Am In Christ? by Neil T. Anderson was a gift from mum. Today's was I am a friend in Christ and they were explaining what a friend means. And how much Jesus is of a friend to us, the very best kind btw. And he what it takes to love a brother as a friend is to be real; hence he quotes "The Velveteen Rabbit"

“What is real?” asked the Rabbit one day. “Does it mean having things that buzz inside and a stick-out handle?”

            “Real isn’t how you are made,” said the Skin Horse “It’s a thing that happens to you when a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but really loves you, then you become real.”

            “Does it hurt?” asked the Rabbit.

            “Sometimes,” said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. “When you are real you don’t mind being hurt.”

            “Does it happen all at once like being wound up?” he asked, “or bit by bit?

            “It doesn’t happen all at once. You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or have to be carefully kept. Generally by the time you are real, most of your hair has been loved, your eyes drop out, and you get loose in the joints, and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are real you can’t be ugly, except to the people who don’t understand.”

Plenty to ponder on.

Someday; somewhere,

//credits

So two days of JPS Trials have passed; can't believe Pei flew to Sabah today. And I was actually looking for her. Lousy friend I know.

Sometimes good things fall apart so that better things can fall together. BETTER > GOOD. Hm. This actually makes sense but the feeling of holding on to mere GOOD things hold us back huh. Till we never really see the BETTER things. Lately i've been so blurred. About what being a friend means, due to many circumstances. But I need to stop judging cause I can never really see them the way God sees them. He has been helping me through alot. Even during the Forecast trials, God has always been good to me. Despite not scoring very well in certain subjects His grace and mercy is sufficient to keep me believing & trusting.

Yes be inspired because Jesus loves you too!

Cheerios!

// Brokenhearted by Karmin. Stuck in my heaad

Someday; somewhere,

//credits

So two days of JPS Trials have passed; can't believe Pei flew to Sabah today. And I was actually looking for her. Lousy friend I know.

Sometimes good things fall apart so that better things can fall together. BETTER > GOOD. Hm. This actually makes sense but the feeling of holding on to mere GOOD things hold us back huh. Till we never really see the BETTER things. Lately i've been so blurred. About what being a friend means, due to many circumstances. But I need to stop judging cause I can never really see them the way God sees them. He has been helping me through alot. Even during the Forecast trials, God has always been good to me. Despite not scoring very well in certain subjects His grace and mercy is sufficient to keep me believing & trusting.

Yes be inspired because Jesus loves you too!

Cheerios!

// Brokenhearted by Karmin. Stuck in my heaad

Ever ever after?

So my posts have been really bland lately, do forgive me. strangers. aka me talking to myself hehe. its funny that daddy tends to be really kiasu lately. and to think that chinese are more kiasu in my family guess t doesn't apply. AT LEAST HE'S ASLEEP. the moment he gets back from work he makes sure I sit and study.

BUT WELL.



he made honey lemon for me this morning when i wasn't feeling well :') Something i'll probably never forget heh.

kbye.

Ever ever after?

So my posts have been really bland lately, do forgive me. strangers. aka me talking to myself hehe. its funny that daddy tends to be really kiasu lately. and to think that chinese are more kiasu in my family guess t doesn't apply. AT LEAST HE'S ASLEEP. the moment he gets back from work he makes sure I sit and study.

BUT WELL.



he made honey lemon for me this morning when i wasn't feeling well :') Something i'll probably never forget heh.

kbye.

what is your reason to swim?

IDKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

Life is pretty amazing. (Y)

what is your reason to swim?

IDKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

Life is pretty amazing. (Y)

I joke, but.

who knew jon could be as thin as a screen? lololol. tis is so far-nay

I joke, but.

who knew jon could be as thin as a screen? lololol. tis is so far-nay

Letters to Juliet,

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I4fNH6mTI-E]

yes for the thousandth time;

Letters to Juliet,

yes for the thousandth time;

Mannn,

I really didn't know that everything could be so miserable. No really. Can't you just be happy for once, and stop lashing it out on everyone. I really don't understand. Maybe it means a lot to me cause its the only thing that hasn't change while my whole world revolves 360 degrees. New school, new house, it has been through a lot with me. I really thought you wanted me to be happy.
Specially now.


No hard feelings, but I feel awful not being able to make you proud and always being the reason your unhappy. I can't say I didn't try. Just maybe cause everything I do, is to make you approve of what I've done. Yea. Okay. You don't care.

Jon's gone and thats all that matters.

I get it.

Mannn,

I really didn't know that everything could be so miserable. No really. Can't you just be happy for once, and stop lashing it out on everyone. I really don't understand. Maybe it means a lot to me cause its the only thing that hasn't change while my whole world revolves 360 degrees. New school, new house, it has been through a lot with me. I really thought you wanted me to be happy.
Specially now.


No hard feelings, but I feel awful not being able to make you proud and always being the reason your unhappy. I can't say I didn't try. Just maybe cause everything I do, is to make you approve of what I've done. Yea. Okay. You don't care.

Jon's gone and thats all that matters.

I get it.

#541 Brave

Salutations fellow aliens.

I have often pondered. What does it mean to be brave?
Does it mean masking all your fears behind. Acting strong? Being fake with what you feel?

Well. I really hate the word fear. It's like your worst nightmares, because fear stops you from doing everything you could ever imagine. The fear of not being accepted, fear of loneliness, fear of rejection, fear of being not able enough, fear of failing, and what nots.

It makes me feel insecure.

Hence in times like this I can only turn to God who stood before my failures to give me a future and a hope. He makes my insecurity, secure. And that is why, being brave is something we should all be. Simply cause we know He's on our side.

Right now I just wish I was in total recall, just so I can travel through the earths core halfway around the world. To see kor. Just cause lifes different without him, and simply for that reason.

Till then,
Just had to let it out

#541 Brave

Salutations fellow aliens.

I have often pondered. What does it mean to be brave?
Does it mean masking all your fears behind. Acting strong? Being fake with what you feel?

Well. I really hate the word fear. It's like your worst nightmares, because fear stops you from doing everything you could ever imagine. The fear of not being accepted, fear of loneliness, fear of rejection, fear of being not able enough, fear of failing, and what nots.

It makes me feel insecure.

Hence in times like this I can only turn to God who stood before my failures to give me a future and a hope. He makes my insecurity, secure. And that is why, being brave is something we should all be. Simply cause we know He's on our side.

Right now I just wish I was in total recall, just so I can travel through the earths core halfway around the world. To see kor. Just cause lifes different without him, and simply for that reason.

Till then,
Just had to let it out

#540 When life takes a turn;

hello again.

strangers, stalkers, wanderers who miraculously landed here. sometimes i wonder why i actually keep this blog. but i realised that not many people read, and to be frank, to me its a good thing. its kinda like how Tyler writes his letters to God cause this gives me space to let my thoughts out.

so anyways, the past few days have been keeping me on my toes. everyones emotions have been hanging on a thread. i'm proud to say that among us, i'm the most stable, or at least i keep my emotions in check. maybe thats because i really ignore my problems and things i dont like. somehow, it puts life's problem on hold. and now, i see it as something good. but i guess theres a limit to how strong i can be in masking my emotions. i mean if you're gonna lash out all your sadness with anger... i really dont know how that is going to solve anything.

really sometimes i really dont understand why things like these make me so worked up. i dont know why life takes a dangerously sharp turn too. but the only comfort i have is in God, and the He has made everything happen for a reason. yeaa, i know i'm a Christian. and yes, i have to be grateful, and i have to honor my parents, and yes, i have to always look at the positive things in life, and choose to overcome the bad things, to forgive people first, to put others first, to always respect everyone else.

but sometimes, the expectations of living up to a good Christian girl standards just too much

You can't define a person by what they show you alone. and i have to admit, im not very sincere in the way i act. i can smile all the time but feel so horrible inside. maybe its cause i dont want everyone to know whats going on. or maybe its because i dont trust anyone enough. but you can go ahead and call me two faced, i can't help myself. these days i really dont know who to trust anymore. really, thats why always having God by my side has brought me through the storms. and noo, i dont have a good Christian girl testimony saying "God touched me, now i love Him so much." YES, its true God touched me, but im a Christian because i believe with all my heart that Gods plans are perfect, not by anything else.

and that is also how i get through every storm that comes crashing my way.

yeaa right now it may be a really low point in my life, considering the pressure of studying, doing well and etc. but. i'll get through, i always do cause I have GOD.

and when problems are solved, it feels silly pouring your heart out and ranting to a friend about it. logical enough not to share problems eh? besides, dont be a burden by making them feel sorry for you, i believe you should bless them and be there for them instead, cause once again. life ain't all about you or me. its about our great big God who died for us. and us giving all the glory and honor back to Him who rightfully deserves our every breathe.

____

on the bright side, i had a great time in CF's farewell party today ;
although we may live so differently, hang out with different friends, have different hobbies, our love for God has made those differences be put aside. and these people are really like family. Love them to the bits, and nothing is ever going to change that ♥

CF FAREWELL 2012 @Vanessa's place. Unedited.

yes, i have concluded.
life has ups and downs.

i guess it the people who love you around that gets you going each time you fall down.
and God plays the biggest role in that too. its amazing how He never gives up on me each time i fail. instead He gives me the extra strength to face whatever comes next. well, i'm eternally grateful for that and i owe Him everything.

yes, when life takes a steep turn. we always have God by our side. don't you think so?

guess i feel a whole lot better now.
sincerely,
till next time

#540 When life takes a turn;

hello again.

strangers, stalkers, wanderers who miraculously landed here. sometimes i wonder why i actually keep this blog. but i realised that not many people read, and to be frank, to me its a good thing. its kinda like how Tyler writes his letters to God cause this gives me space to let my thoughts out.

so anyways, the past few days have been keeping me on my toes. everyones emotions have been hanging on a thread. i'm proud to say that among us, i'm the most stable, or at least i keep my emotions in check. maybe thats because i really ignore my problems and things i dont like. somehow, it puts life's problem on hold. and now, i see it as something good. but i guess theres a limit to how strong i can be in masking my emotions. i mean if you're gonna lash out all your sadness with anger... i really dont know how that is going to solve anything.

really sometimes i really dont understand why things like these make me so worked up. i dont know why life takes a dangerously sharp turn too. but the only comfort i have is in God, and the He has made everything happen for a reason. yeaa, i know i'm a Christian. and yes, i have to be grateful, and i have to honor my parents, and yes, i have to always look at the positive things in life, and choose to overcome the bad things, to forgive people first, to put others first, to always respect everyone else.

but sometimes, the expectations of living up to a good Christian girl standards just too much

You can't define a person by what they show you alone. and i have to admit, im not very sincere in the way i act. i can smile all the time but feel so horrible inside. maybe its cause i dont want everyone to know whats going on. or maybe its because i dont trust anyone enough. but you can go ahead and call me two faced, i can't help myself. these days i really dont know who to trust anymore. really, thats why always having God by my side has brought me through the storms. and noo, i dont have a good Christian girl testimony saying "God touched me, now i love Him so much." YES, its true God touched me, but im a Christian because i believe with all my heart that Gods plans are perfect, not by anything else.

and that is also how i get through every storm that comes crashing my way.

yeaa right now it may be a really low point in my life, considering the pressure of studying, doing well and etc. but. i'll get through, i always do cause I have GOD.

and when problems are solved, it feels silly pouring your heart out and ranting to a friend about it. logical enough not to share problems eh? besides, dont be a burden by making them feel sorry for you, i believe you should bless them and be there for them instead, cause once again. life ain't all about you or me. its about our great big God who died for us. and us giving all the glory and honor back to Him who rightfully deserves our every breathe.

____

on the bright side, i had a great time in CF's farewell party today ;
although we may live so differently, hang out with different friends, have different hobbies, our love for God has made those differences be put aside. and these people are really like family. Love them to the bits, and nothing is ever going to change that ♥

CF FAREWELL 2012 @Vanessa's place. Unedited.

yes, i have concluded.
life has ups and downs.

i guess it the people who love you around that gets you going each time you fall down.
and God plays the biggest role in that too. its amazing how He never gives up on me each time i fail. instead He gives me the extra strength to face whatever comes next. well, i'm eternally grateful for that and i owe Him everything.


yes, when life takes a steep turn. we always have God by our side. don't you think so?


guess i feel a whole lot better now.
sincerely,
till next time

Psalm 46:1

God is our refuge and strength, 
    an ever-present help in trouble.

Psalm 46:1

God is our refuge and strength, 
    an ever-present help in trouble.

Reasons to not talk to monkeys:

this was actually funny.

(Y)

Reasons to not talk to monkeys:

this was actually funny.

(Y)

lolololol,

we aren't so strong huh?


___

LOL I THOUGHT I RAN OUT OF TEARS. apparently thats what i thought

lolololol,

we aren't so strong huh?


___

LOL I THOUGHT I RAN OUT OF TEARS. apparently thats what i thought

82800 seconds left with you,

..and you're making me feel like your friends are more important than me </3

Guess this is good bye then;

best friend, anakin skywalker, retard, pig.

82800 seconds left with you,

..and you're making me feel like your friends are more important than me </3

Guess this is good bye then;

best friend, anakin skywalker, retard, pig.

Problem...?

SOLVED!
genius.

Problem...?

SOLVED!
genius.

Inspire a generation;

Credits : kayilyouth

Woke up this morning
Jon: Bolt won!
Me: Huh? 200m?
Jon: yeaa finals just now *4am
Me: Oh then Blake?
Jon: Second, ask me who got third. ask me...
Me: huh? okay who got 3rd? USA? Tyson Gay right?
Jon: Noooo, the new Jamaican guy; Meir something. they dominate everything wei.
Me: ohhh, really?

I was so tired this morning and apparently the brother stayed up all night watching olympics. Its that season hey. But it was the only thing that made us talk lately. Brings the whole family to the TV.

Just got back from Empire with to brother to get him a farewell gift. We shopped so fast that our parking was free! Woots, bunch of cheap people we are but who hates free stuff right? Hahah. Anyways, my tables definitely missing me today. Considering the fact that i've never touched my books after exams sighs. Went for a jog and I saw so many schoolmates. Hee. Apparently everyones out at 6 eh. Anyway, we've been getting some really great food lately. Going out for family dinners every night, stuffing Jon with all the Malaysian food before Sunday. Haha. Oh since i'm not on twitter now, my facebook converted into timeline automatically. Nooooooo. It's so confusing and hard to use. How can they do this to me? :( iTunes shuffled to Joe Brooks. Aiya, i'm really tired of everything. Tired of aching and dreading Jon's departure. Just staring into space lately and thinking of hows life going to be without him is distracting enough. And to add it all up, he's not going to be here for the holidays.

Oh shut up you; he'll be back next olympics. Make the best out of everything.

Oh man, I really wish you were online too. Really need to talk to someone, why did I delete your number again? dumb me. :(


Title: courtesy of the London Olympics 2012's motto.

Inspire a generation;

Credits : kayilyouth

Woke up this morning
Jon: Bolt won!
Me: Huh? 200m?
Jon: yeaa finals just now *4am
Me: Oh then Blake?
Jon: Second, ask me who got third. ask me...
Me: huh? okay who got 3rd? USA? Tyson Gay right?
Jon: Noooo, the new Jamaican guy; Meir something. they dominate everything wei.
Me: ohhh, really?

I was so tired this morning and apparently the brother stayed up all night watching olympics. Its that season hey. But it was the only thing that made us talk lately. Brings the whole family to the TV.

Just got back from Empire with to brother to get him a farewell gift. We shopped so fast that our parking was free! Woots, bunch of cheap people we are but who hates free stuff right? Hahah. Anyways, my tables definitely missing me today. Considering the fact that i've never touched my books after exams sighs. Went for a jog and I saw so many schoolmates. Hee. Apparently everyones out at 6 eh. Anyway, we've been getting some really great food lately. Going out for family dinners every night, stuffing Jon with all the Malaysian food before Sunday. Haha. Oh since i'm not on twitter now, my facebook converted into timeline automatically. Nooooooo. It's so confusing and hard to use. How can they do this to me? :( iTunes shuffled to Joe Brooks. Aiya, i'm really tired of everything. Tired of aching and dreading Jon's departure. Just staring into space lately and thinking of hows life going to be without him is distracting enough. And to add it all up, he's not going to be here for the holidays.

Oh shut up you; he'll be back next olympics. Make the best out of everything.

Oh man, I really wish you were online too. Really need to talk to someone, why did I delete your number again? dumb me. :(


Title: courtesy of the London Olympics 2012's motto.

hee joe brooks,

Eddies Attic - Atlanta/GA - 21/09/2010

stoning..infront of your textbook before your exams is not a good thing. at all. oh wells, early mornings are dreadful. but studying is a "do or die" eh. somehow like what sir says whenever we run. lololol. yay me.

hee joe brooks,

Eddies Attic - Atlanta/GA - 21/09/2010

stoning..infront of your textbook before your exams is not a good thing. at all. oh wells, early mornings are dreadful. but studying is a "do or die" eh. somehow like what sir says whenever we run. lololol. yay me.

Finally,

....a breather. Thank You for the english 2 only.

Finally,

....a breather. Thank You for the english 2 only.

#530 All I want in this world,

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iDZcvtMmRtg]

is You

the worst of me // succeeded by the best of You.

__

Currently stoning infront of my Physics book. So many things left unsaid. 

And. 5 days left. GOD IS IN CONTROL. 

yes. tmr Physics? GOD IS IN CONTROL. 

I need to get my mind together first. GOD IS IN CONTROL. 

I'll keep telling myself that.

___

 “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9

#530 All I want in this world,

is You

the worst of me // succeeded by the best of You.

__

Currently stoning infront of my Physics book. So many things left unsaid. 

And. 5 days left. GOD IS IN CONTROL. 

yes. tmr Physics? GOD IS IN CONTROL. 

I need to get my mind together first. GOD IS IN CONTROL. 

I'll keep telling myself that.

___

 “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9

168 hours;

So it's the fourth day of the eight month already. Thats like two third of our year, over. Just a couple of months more and it's a new year. Time flies faster than anything.

Soon enough you'll have to face things you never wanted. Things have been a blur for me lately. The transition of no more running to 100% studying. Books, books, and more books. Its been some really getting to used to. My leg muscles have shrunk, phases of leg cramps, not getting hungry lately. But thats all physical. I've come to realise that running was actually a part of me that I enjoyed. Despite struggling and having endless training hours; studying is way pressuring. Everyone knowing what they're studying and you're like, whaaat? We actually learned that? And on top of it all. I have to slowly accept the fact that Jon is actually leaving. Yes so. I've been trying to ignore that as a fact; but everything too real to be mere conversations. Conversations were becoming reality. Bags are packed. A "to-do before Jon leaves" was made. I had no choice.

Jon's really leaving. And I keep trying to accept it. But I can't. Reality hits hard when you least expect it. True indeed.

I've been really preoccupied with my thoughts lately. I struggle a lot. When i'm studying I think too much. When I sleep I think too much. When i'm with my family I get to emotional; be it getting angry easily, or being too sensitive. I break down all the time. INFRONT OF THEM. Which really embarrassing, but i've stopped. At least these few days. AND THE WORST THING IS I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I get so helpless. I mean, everyone in that family is coping with their own way of letting him go too. But he has always been someone really close to me in the family. We stand up for each other, grew up together doing all sorts of silly things. Despite growing up. We've got closer in other ways. He really talks sense into me when I lose myself. He's honest. And the only sibling I can turn to; being the second. SIGHS THING IS. Everything is going to change. I really don't get why he can't leave AFTER SPM, not before, but well. God's plans are perfect. No denying that. He'll help me cope with all this. I believe. I really really don't like where I am now. Its like when  I study, all I think about is how many days we have left before he leaves. I mean I know its gonna be just 3 years. But 3 years can do a lot for someone. I might even get back a totally different brother. AND THE USA IS SO FAR. Its not like he can come back anytime he wants. Whats worse is that, I don't know how to act around him. Mum says make him feel loved and appreciated before he leaves, but I choose to ignore the fact that he's leaving. I mean, till now, I have yet to say anything like "I'll miss you" and all, we just joke about it. Well. Guess I need to stop talking to myself and start sorting things out. But this I know for now, I really don't want to study. I just do it cause Mum and Dad are checking in on me. And I hate myself for being crazily over emotional. I hate it. I need to let go. Cast all my worries down before the cross. Just cause Jesus has been through so much worse & that He understands.

168 hours till he leaves and 2184 hours left to SPM. Despite everything. I have to surrender everything i'm feeling right now. Only because I believe deep inside, that all His ways are perfect.

____

God’s way is perfect.
    All the Lord’s promises prove true.
    He is a shield for all who look to him for protection.
Psalms 18:30

Till then,

CHONG WEI vs. ugly moustache LIN DAN now

168 hours;

So it's the fourth day of the eight month already. Thats like two third of our year, over. Just a couple of months more and it's a new year. Time flies faster than anything.

Soon enough you'll have to face things you never wanted. Things have been a blur for me lately. The transition of no more running to 100% studying. Books, books, and more books. Its been some really getting to used to. My leg muscles have shrunk, phases of leg cramps, not getting hungry lately. But thats all physical. I've come to realise that running was actually a part of me that I enjoyed. Despite struggling and having endless training hours; studying is way pressuring. Everyone knowing what they're studying and you're like, whaaat? We actually learned that? And on top of it all. I have to slowly accept the fact that Jon is actually leaving. Yes so. I've been trying to ignore that as a fact; but everything too real to be mere conversations. Conversations were becoming reality. Bags are packed. A "to-do before Jon leaves" was made. I had no choice.

Jon's really leaving. And I keep trying to accept it. But I can't. Reality hits hard when you least expect it. True indeed.

I've been really preoccupied with my thoughts lately. I struggle a lot. When i'm studying I think too much. When I sleep I think too much. When i'm with my family I get to emotional; be it getting angry easily, or being too sensitive. I break down all the time. INFRONT OF THEM. Which really embarrassing, but i've stopped. At least these few days. AND THE WORST THING IS I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I get so helpless. I mean, everyone in that family is coping with their own way of letting him go too. But he has always been someone really close to me in the family. We stand up for each other, grew up together doing all sorts of silly things. Despite growing up. We've got closer in other ways. He really talks sense into me when I lose myself. He's honest. And the only sibling I can turn to; being the second. SIGHS THING IS. Everything is going to change. I really don't get why he can't leave AFTER SPM, not before, but well. God's plans are perfect. No denying that. He'll help me cope with all this. I believe. I really really don't like where I am now. Its like when  I study, all I think about is how many days we have left before he leaves. I mean I know its gonna be just 3 years. But 3 years can do a lot for someone. I might even get back a totally different brother. AND THE USA IS SO FAR. Its not like he can come back anytime he wants. Whats worse is that, I don't know how to act around him. Mum says make him feel loved and appreciated before he leaves, but I choose to ignore the fact that he's leaving. I mean, till now, I have yet to say anything like "I'll miss you" and all, we just joke about it. Well. Guess I need to stop talking to myself and start sorting things out. But this I know for now, I really don't want to study. I just do it cause Mum and Dad are checking in on me. And I hate myself for being crazily over emotional. I hate it. I need to let go. Cast all my worries down before the cross. Just cause Jesus has been through so much worse & that He understands.

168 hours till he leaves and 2184 hours left to SPM. Despite everything. I have to surrender everything i'm feeling right now. Only because I believe deep inside, that all His ways are perfect.

____

God’s way is perfect.
    All the Lord’s promises prove true.
    He is a shield for all who look to him for protection.
Psalms 18:30

Till then,

CHONG WEI vs. ugly moustache LIN DAN now

# All we need is You,

//

All my hope, is in You, all my strength is in You. With every strength my soul will rest in You.

# All we need is You,

//

All my hope, is in You, all my strength is in You. With every strength my soul will rest in You.