Friday 30 November 2012

CHOCOLATE FUDGE,

high school is over, I need freaking closure,
AND, TO STOP BREAKING & LOSING THINGS.


URGH REALLY GOD. Why me. And then again, why me..
















i'm learning, and trying, but sometimes. its silly the problems i face. i feel silly. plain dumb. -.- (Y)








stop. be grateful genia *slaps self*
AND WHO ON EARTH READS MY BLOG. I feel sad for you my friends. Don't bother. CTRL+X

CHOCOLATE FUDGE,

high school is over, I need freaking closure,
AND, TO STOP BREAKING & LOSING THINGS.


URGH REALLY GOD. Why me. And then again, why me..
















i'm learning, and trying, but sometimes. its silly the problems i face. i feel silly. plain dumb. -.- (Y)








stop. be grateful genia *slaps self*
AND WHO ON EARTH READS MY BLOG. I feel sad for you my friends. Don't bother. CTRL+X

Thursday 29 November 2012

My problem?

Yea I kind of figured out what it is already. I honestly don't know why somethings happen sometimes, like why would God take my best friend to study so far away. And then dump me here, on a crossroad for my future. And giving me the hope that he would just walk right in that door and say he's back from football.

I hate everything, Christmas without my brother, Samantha saying she wish he'll come back. Being in his room. Skyping with him but all we can do is small talk. Like where is the fairness in all this? I honestly thought I will be too busy to miss him. Turns out studying was a pretty good distraction. I know that other families have missed their kids too I mean Pei has both her sisters in UK, why should I complain. I just don't know who to turn to anymore. I mean, God is not someone I can see, or hug. Maybe some people see God, but.


I just hate being so close to him..............


to the only guy in the world who would listen to every stupid word I say and makes me feel like I mean something to him. Not only to me, but to the sisters too. We miss the brother a lot, who's gonna be our body guard now? :( And save us when we do silly things, and cook for us crazy stuff. And cause stupid fights.

I don't mind the stupid fights now. guess its too late.



snap out of it you silly girl.





trust me, i'm trying hard. i just miss my gym buddy. and my himym buddy. and my lazy pig lala. and for the record, thanks for telling me how much I mean to you. Yea, you. Not my brother. Silly me, for thinking you actually care. 

I think i'm actually relieved high schools over. I'd amuse myself, see how many people actually bother after this, ha. :)

My problem?

Yea I kind of figured out what it is already. I honestly don't know why somethings happen sometimes, like why would God take my best friend to study so far away. And then dump me here, on a crossroad for my future. And giving me the hope that he would just walk right in that door and say he's back from football.

I hate everything, Christmas without my brother, Samantha saying she wish he'll come back. Being in his room. Skyping with him but all we can do is small talk. Like where is the fairness in all this? I honestly thought I will be too busy to miss him. Turns out studying was a pretty good distraction. I know that other families have missed their kids too I mean Pei has both her sisters in UK, why should I complain. I just don't know who to turn to anymore. I mean, God is not someone I can see, or hug. Maybe some people see God, but.


I just hate being so close to him..............


to the only guy in the world who would listen to every stupid word I say and makes me feel like I mean something to him. Not only to me, but to the sisters too. We miss the brother a lot, who's gonna be our body guard now? :( And save us when we do silly things, and cook for us crazy stuff. And cause stupid fights.

I don't mind the stupid fights now. guess its too late.



snap out of it you silly girl.





trust me, i'm trying hard. i just miss my gym buddy. and my himym buddy. and my lazy pig lala. and for the record, thanks for telling me how much I mean to you. Yea, you. Not my brother. Silly me, for thinking you actually care. 

I think i'm actually relieved high schools over. I'd amuse myself, see how many people actually bother after this, ha. :)

Well hello

// Credits
So lately, i've been thinking alot. And I really feel lost without studying haha. Guess i'm at this really important crossroad of my life eh. Where I pave my future, but I honestly feel so lost. SPM has been a wonderful journey nevertheless, manage to go through it well I guess, not talking about confirmed A+'s but about staying healthy and having the strength to actually study.

Not only in this, but in whether I should keep running. I know it's so easy to say, but one race takes hours of training, and i'm not sure if i can commit so much of my life, give up so many things and compete again. It's amazing how many days of school I've missed every year. And tuition classes i've burned, I think dad pays an extra month every year for all the classes I've missed added up. I can't be ungrateful because running has been a really huge part of my life, but whether it will be a huge part of my future too, its still undecided. Daddy's taking me to see colleges now, open days and all. This is weird. I feel old. Aiks.


sighs so many things to do. So little time. guess i'm off to hit the gym. its the last month already, wow two years past really fast. And now, december is just around the corner. What have I done with my life lately?

HMM.

I MISS MY BROTHA.

Well hello

// Credits
So lately, i've been thinking alot. And I really feel lost without studying haha. Guess i'm at this really important crossroad of my life eh. Where I pave my future, but I honestly feel so lost. SPM has been a wonderful journey nevertheless, manage to go through it well I guess, not talking about confirmed A+'s but about staying healthy and having the strength to actually study.

Not only in this, but in whether I should keep running. I know it's so easy to say, but one race takes hours of training, and i'm not sure if i can commit so much of my life, give up so many things and compete again. It's amazing how many days of school I've missed every year. And tuition classes i've burned, I think dad pays an extra month every year for all the classes I've missed added up. I can't be ungrateful because running has been a really huge part of my life, but whether it will be a huge part of my future too, its still undecided. Daddy's taking me to see colleges now, open days and all. This is weird. I feel old. Aiks.


sighs so many things to do. So little time. guess i'm off to hit the gym. its the last month already, wow two years past really fast. And now, december is just around the corner. What have I done with my life lately?

HMM.

I MISS MY BROTHA.

Tuesday 27 November 2012

Saturday 24 November 2012

3 months 11 days,

haaaaa, we'll all miss you in our own way but you not being here was taking some getting use to. AND. The bad part is over, i hope. parcels are fun and exciting. but, you have a great december. And your first Christmas without us! SNOW SNOW! White christmas aye?


Oh, we're not an even number anymore. 5. Who dines for 5? One seat will always be awkwardly empty, kann, DONT GET HOMESICK. I LOVE YOU


MISS UR STEWPID FACE. PIGS. MONKEYS.
BYE BYE KORS ^^


3 months 11 days,

haaaaa, we'll all miss you in our own way but you not being here was taking some getting use to. AND. The bad part is over, i hope. parcels are fun and exciting. but, you have a great december. And your first Christmas without us! SNOW SNOW! White christmas aye?


Oh, we're not an even number anymore. 5. Who dines for 5? One seat will always be awkwardly empty, kann, DONT GET HOMESICK. I LOVE YOU


MISS UR STEWPID FACE. PIGS. MONKEYS.
BYE BYE KORS ^^


Wednesday 21 November 2012

#574 The road to nowhere.

Credits//

And, i'm already thinking, where to next. Phewww, 3 days of really crazy exams finally over. only two hectic days left :) Slightly relieved that Physics wasn't as hard as Jon Quek said it would be. And on top of it all I read the paper 3 experiment only minutes before.

Oh and on sunday night, I couldn't find my IC, and I really panicked. Thank God Bryan said that we can just get a slip for it. But I was still scared & I prayed very, VERY VERYY hard. I almost cried. haaaaaaaa, turns out the next day it was in my pinafore pocket. That was already WASHED.

SOYEA, God has been pretty amazing in my life. I don't know about you but my God is pretty real to me!

Here's a verse;
James 1:5
New International Version (NIV)
5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.


goodnights! till freedom then.

#574 The road to nowhere.

Credits//

And, i'm already thinking, where to next. Phewww, 3 days of really crazy exams finally over. only two hectic days left :) Slightly relieved that Physics wasn't as hard as Jon Quek said it would be. And on top of it all I read the paper 3 experiment only minutes before.

Oh and on sunday night, I couldn't find my IC, and I really panicked. Thank God Bryan said that we can just get a slip for it. But I was still scared & I prayed very, VERY VERYY hard. I almost cried. haaaaaaaa, turns out the next day it was in my pinafore pocket. That was already WASHED.

SOYEA, God has been pretty amazing in my life. I don't know about you but my God is pretty real to me!

Here's a verse;
James 1:5
New International Version (NIV)
5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.


goodnights! till freedom then.

Sunday 18 November 2012

T-minus 10 days,

Samantha sent my brother an IM with an exploding face on skype earlier. I JUST SAW. scaryscary

She came back from camp yesterday & almost lost her voice. So cute. Anyways, here's an old song I found.
By the Kutless. Shuffled to this song in an old playlist and I find the lyrics never failing to inspire me as always. And the reason why I love Christian bands. Check out their NEW SINGLE!

// The Kutless, What faith can do.

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning

Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know

Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try

Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can

Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

T-minus 10 days,

Samantha sent my brother an IM with an exploding face on skype earlier. I JUST SAW. scaryscary

She came back from camp yesterday & almost lost her voice. So cute. Anyways, here's an old song I found.
By the Kutless. Shuffled to this song in an old playlist and I find the lyrics never failing to inspire me as always. And the reason why I love Christian bands. Check out their NEW SINGLE!

// The Kutless, What faith can do.

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning

Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know

Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try

Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can

Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

Tuesday 13 November 2012

The day I turned 17;


THE GAIS:
Park, thanks for the rose! :)
Jack, Chuan Jian, Jared, Josh, thank you all for coming.
Eu Jin, willing to miss gym time & eat fatty food? hahah,
Jia, thanks for perro! Wee Jui, eeeh, haah thanks for the coke! :D
HANJIN. HOHO, watch out friend. *Stares*
At least I gave you cake to eat, next time, I will not be generous no more.*serious face*
And Chun Yeaw for calling :) 
PIN & MEI, the card was awesome thank you both! :)

YAY WE SO CUTE.
Adilah & Munawar! Irfan too! Thanks for coming,
AND HAPPY BELATED PRETTY SMART CLASSMATE! :)
Oh and ill always remember our dorky moments in class ;) 5D FTW

THANK YOU VIVIEN
For all the seconds you spent not studying just to celebrate my special day
love you!
xxxxx

THANKS FOR THE CAMERA YATTY.
And our retarded moments. *coughs.
LOVE YOU GRANDMA ;) Jk about the grandma part.
Not jk about the love you part.

PICTURE CREDITS HERE.


THANK YOU for the OLYMPICS TEE! :)
AND the card.
AND the video
AND the song
And everything else "sister" ;)


San. Jing. Pei.
Best friends/prom buddies ftw.
(Y) LOVE YOU ALL.
We go crazy & retarded together, but thank you all for everything you've done for me.
Such amazing friends *sniffs. But really. :) Thanks for helping pei organise & etc etc.
AND MAKING MY LIFE SHO COLOURFUL. Glitter & rainbows, and unicorns tooooo!




LAST BUT NOT LEAST: CUTE YEEPEI
To the girl that made everything possible. THANK YOU FOR PLANNING THIS
I would write an essay about you too but;
I believe that you have so much in you, and your kind heart to do charity proves it.
Pei, studying is not everything, so what if you get all A's? So what if you don't?
People will judge, people will look down, but people also forget you know ;)
 Life ain't all about the books. Believe in yourself a little bit more okay. <3

Thank you for this. Party
heh, you so sweet really I know how hard it is to get everyone together.
So for the effort specially during SPM <3 Owe you big time.

THANK YOU for fetching me home. Safely too.

*HUGS*

And to all those who wished. Thank you, even though it wasn't on fb idk how you found out. AND THE GUYS, everyone of the olahraga guys wished me. FB or whatsapp. Whatever, but naw, you guys remembered. :') I'm going miss every.one.of.you. Really, but it's time to hand over the baton, so keep the legacy for Seafield. Track and field. AND TO THOSE I MISSED, or forgot to reply. Deepest apologies. And thank you. For making my birthday wonderful in every way.

With love,
&
Happy Birthday Mummy!




The day I turned 17;


THE GAIS:
Park, thanks for the rose! :)
Jack, Chuan Jian, Jared, Josh, thank you all for coming.
Eu Jin, willing to miss gym time & eat fatty food? hahah,
Jia, thanks for perro! Wee Jui, eeeh, haah thanks for the coke! :D
HANJIN. HOHO, watch out friend. *Stares*
At least I gave you cake to eat, next time, I will not be generous no more.*serious face*
And Chun Yeaw for calling :) 
PIN & MEI, the card was awesome thank you both! :)

YAY WE SO CUTE.
Adilah & Munawar! Irfan too! Thanks for coming,
AND HAPPY BELATED PRETTY SMART CLASSMATE! :)
Oh and ill always remember our dorky moments in class ;) 5D FTW

THANK YOU VIVIEN
For all the seconds you spent not studying just to celebrate my special day
love you!
xxxxx

THANKS FOR THE CAMERA YATTY.
And our retarded moments. *coughs.
LOVE YOU GRANDMA ;) Jk about the grandma part.
Not jk about the love you part.

PICTURE CREDITS HERE.


THANK YOU for the OLYMPICS TEE! :)
AND the card.
AND the video
AND the song
And everything else "sister" ;)


San. Jing. Pei.
Best friends/prom buddies ftw.
(Y) LOVE YOU ALL.
We go crazy & retarded together, but thank you all for everything you've done for me.
Such amazing friends *sniffs. But really. :) Thanks for helping pei organise & etc etc.
AND MAKING MY LIFE SHO COLOURFUL. Glitter & rainbows, and unicorns tooooo!




LAST BUT NOT LEAST: CUTE YEEPEI
To the girl that made everything possible. THANK YOU FOR PLANNING THIS
I would write an essay about you too but;
I believe that you have so much in you, and your kind heart to do charity proves it.
Pei, studying is not everything, so what if you get all A's? So what if you don't?
People will judge, people will look down, but people also forget you know ;)
 Life ain't all about the books. Believe in yourself a little bit more okay. <3

Thank you for this. Party
heh, you so sweet really I know how hard it is to get everyone together.
So for the effort specially during SPM <3 Owe you big time.

THANK YOU for fetching me home. Safely too.

*HUGS*

And to all those who wished. Thank you, even though it wasn't on fb idk how you found out. AND THE GUYS, everyone of the olahraga guys wished me. FB or whatsapp. Whatever, but naw, you guys remembered. :') I'm going miss every.one.of.you. Really, but it's time to hand over the baton, so keep the legacy for Seafield. Track and field. AND TO THOSE I MISSED, or forgot to reply. Deepest apologies. And thank you. For making my birthday wonderful in every way.

With love,
&
Happy Birthday Mummy!




Sunday 11 November 2012

AND.

........................................Mum wanted me to BUY her a card. So I wouldn't spend time making one.. I broke my promise. & I have nothing nice to say.

So thank You God for everything bright and beautiful.

I NEED SLEEP, AND STRENGTH, and def more wisdom.

EUGENIA U SILLY GAL. Y U SO NEGATIVITYZ? *slaps self.

***

"A Few Reasons why Guys like Girls

24. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt them anymore."

AND.

........................................Mum wanted me to BUY her a card. So I wouldn't spend time making one.. I broke my promise. & I have nothing nice to say.

So thank You God for everything bright and beautiful.

I NEED SLEEP, AND STRENGTH, and def more wisdom.

EUGENIA U SILLY GAL. Y U SO NEGATIVITYZ? *slaps self.

***

"A Few Reasons why Guys like Girls

24. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt them anymore."

Thursday 8 November 2012

Hurdle one,

overrrrrrr.

now it would mean the world if I could talk to you without feeling like i'm annoying you. Unanswered messages everywhere, I just wish I wasn't that annoying to you, to anyone in fact, guess its only me and You, God.

I'm so happy BM & Sej is history. Haaa, I am so funny :')

___



The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
-Broken, Lifehouse


Hurdle one,

overrrrrrr.

now it would mean the world if I could talk to you without feeling like i'm annoying you. Unanswered messages everywhere, I just wish I wasn't that annoying to you, to anyone in fact, guess its only me and You, God.

I'm so happy BM & Sej is history. Haaa, I am so funny :')

___



The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
-Broken, Lifehouse


Friday 2 November 2012