I'm going to be missing Ben, the month is always over, but things are going to be great, i know it.
BYE.
Monday 28 January 2013
Stay well, stay true,
I'm going to be missing Ben, the month is always over, but things are going to be great, i know it.
BYE.
BYE.
Sunday 20 January 2013
#588 Lovely sundays,
Tiffany played the keys for ch1urch today hehehe, so cute. Service was amazing and definitely something to learn from Elder Ho's message about this year's theme. Heh, it is also Danielle and Sel's last week. Hence the occasion us girls decided to go Midv for lunch. Couple of hours well spent and the adorable two; Lianne and Sharon came too hhaha. SO GREAT TO SEE THE JACLYN WONG AGAINS
So many pictures in their new i5 which will come soon, but we'll sette with this one from Janice's first. The rest of the evening was even well spent. Like a pig, slept through haha, it was raining in my offense and my day off from any sort of work. or exercise, heh. okay. Have a lovely weekend all. I need hair cut, my fringe is so long.
NEW WEEK AHEAD, and I have no idea whats in store for me yet.
Till then.
God bless!
#588 Lovely sundays,
Tiffany played the keys for ch1urch today hehehe, so cute. Service was amazing and definitely something to learn from Elder Ho's message about this year's theme. Heh, it is also Danielle and Sel's last week. Hence the occasion us girls decided to go Midv for lunch. Couple of hours well spent and the adorable two; Lianne and Sharon came too hhaha. SO GREAT TO SEE THE JACLYN WONG AGAINS
So many pictures in their new i5 which will come soon, but we'll sette with this one from Janice's first. The rest of the evening was even well spent. Like a pig, slept through haha, it was raining in my offense and my day off from any sort of work. or exercise, heh. okay. Have a lovely weekend all. I need hair cut, my fringe is so long.
NEW WEEK AHEAD, and I have no idea whats in store for me yet.
Till then.
God bless!
Friday 18 January 2013
#587 Raw blogging
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| simplicity? |
Today I stumbled upon a very dear friend's blog, and I feel a pinch of jealousy of how the blogger has been able to express herself so clearly and in such a personal way, its amazing the sincerity of the blog. And needless to say I have read plenty of others who blog that way too. I used to blog like that too, but then I don't know when did blogging become a few pictures, some words and thats what a call a post.
Insecurity of what people would say would definitely be at the back of my mind, reminding me ot blog with caution. Haha but who am I kidding, no one reads this blog. And I can just be hopeful that the one person who does will actually be impacted. Because in all sincerity, I haven't had a decent post lately. Maybe occasionally, and I think reading blogs are one of the luxuries of going on the web. Its just so personal, haha reading about one's life.
So I shall tell you about my holidays, at least what I remember.
I pretty much spent my December away, in the hometown of Sarawak where we had crazy fun with the cousins, really. Everyday was exciting. There was always something to do. The highlights were
- of course going to my aunt's orchard (kebun) picking ripe fruits, like rambutan etc.
- 3 nights of barbeque, yums, (Everyone became heavier fyi)
- Sg. Maong the mission trip with their church, and the road trip there!
- Checking out my uncle's new apartment, super sweet hangout place for a bachelor I dare say
- Walks with the dogs!
- Night walks with the cousins
- And of course without a doubt, the family reunion, although incomplete.
Nevertheless, those two weeks were too short. Hahaha, managed to get my granny laughing everyday, and it makes me so happy. Lately the passing away of my late uncle has made her so upset, and she just couldn't really find true joy, in different circumstances. But nevertheless, I hope she was really happy with us being there. My other granny however, mum's side needs prayers. Her bone mass in her knees are decreasing too quickly making it painful to walk. That made us all worried, good news is she is coming over for CNY, considering that it is difficult for her to go visiting over there. God will heal her. My cute granny. When we came back, December went by in a blur. First we were all dead tired, mentally exhausted and we slept, and slept. Which made planning the Christmas party really hard, hahah but nevertheless, it was a success and soon enough, we were in church again for countdown, and there 2012 is over.
January. This month signifies new beginnings, a fresh start. I also realised that college intake, the first one- Jan would be very soon. Initially I was very sure I wanted to do law, because it seemed so convenient. And not to mention, friends were confirm going to go there to, so it made me all the more sure. But things took a huge turn when I realised it wasn't for me. Only to realise another option that would be favored by the ambitious aunts and of course my parents. Hahaha, it's not to say that I want to please them, but what's life without challenges, and hence. I decided to wait for actual results before applying. Hoping for a scholarship, because as i've mentioned earlier I want to study FOC. heh.
My holidays. Danggg, who knew, its 3/4 of the month flew by already. New years. Searching for colleges, intakes, details, etc. Driving amali courses, and church, why have I been so busy? Well,
cleaning the house has taken a huge deal of my time, entertaining the baby sister never gets old. On top of that outings with the friends, there's always plenty to do. And I am actually trying to keep fit so I don't get so sick easily. So much win btw, you can accomplish more cleaning without feeling tired! Haha okay I kid, but while waiting for my "L" I have been driving around the area with mum in the car of course. Not forgetting cooking lunch for my siblings occasionally. Keeping up with my Bible reading, devotions and such. Practicing musical instruments again; picking up old dusty skills that i've neglected due to the busy-ness of my high school years.
IF THAT'S NOT ENOUGH, you get the point, I barely have time to breathe and do nothing. HA.
So basically this is me blogging, again. Hope you were annoyed, jokes.
God bless!
#587 Raw blogging
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| simplicity? |
Today I stumbled upon a very dear friend's blog, and I feel a pinch of jealousy of how the blogger has been able to express herself so clearly and in such a personal way, its amazing the sincerity of the blog. And needless to say I have read plenty of others who blog that way too. I used to blog like that too, but then I don't know when did blogging become a few pictures, some words and thats what a call a post.
Insecurity of what people would say would definitely be at the back of my mind, reminding me ot blog with caution. Haha but who am I kidding, no one reads this blog. And I can just be hopeful that the one person who does will actually be impacted. Because in all sincerity, I haven't had a decent post lately. Maybe occasionally, and I think reading blogs are one of the luxuries of going on the web. Its just so personal, haha reading about one's life.
So I shall tell you about my holidays, at least what I remember.
I pretty much spent my December away, in the hometown of Sarawak where we had crazy fun with the cousins, really. Everyday was exciting. There was always something to do. The highlights were
- of course going to my aunt's orchard (kebun) picking ripe fruits, like rambutan etc.
- 3 nights of barbeque, yums, (Everyone became heavier fyi)
- Sg. Maong the mission trip with their church, and the road trip there!
- Checking out my uncle's new apartment, super sweet hangout place for a bachelor I dare say
- Walks with the dogs!
- Night walks with the cousins
- And of course without a doubt, the family reunion, although incomplete.
Nevertheless, those two weeks were too short. Hahaha, managed to get my granny laughing everyday, and it makes me so happy. Lately the passing away of my late uncle has made her so upset, and she just couldn't really find true joy, in different circumstances. But nevertheless, I hope she was really happy with us being there. My other granny however, mum's side needs prayers. Her bone mass in her knees are decreasing too quickly making it painful to walk. That made us all worried, good news is she is coming over for CNY, considering that it is difficult for her to go visiting over there. God will heal her. My cute granny. When we came back, December went by in a blur. First we were all dead tired, mentally exhausted and we slept, and slept. Which made planning the Christmas party really hard, hahah but nevertheless, it was a success and soon enough, we were in church again for countdown, and there 2012 is over.
January. This month signifies new beginnings, a fresh start. I also realised that college intake, the first one- Jan would be very soon. Initially I was very sure I wanted to do law, because it seemed so convenient. And not to mention, friends were confirm going to go there to, so it made me all the more sure. But things took a huge turn when I realised it wasn't for me. Only to realise another option that would be favored by the ambitious aunts and of course my parents. Hahaha, it's not to say that I want to please them, but what's life without challenges, and hence. I decided to wait for actual results before applying. Hoping for a scholarship, because as i've mentioned earlier I want to study FOC. heh.
My holidays. Danggg, who knew, its 3/4 of the month flew by already. New years. Searching for colleges, intakes, details, etc. Driving amali courses, and church, why have I been so busy? Well,
cleaning the house has taken a huge deal of my time, entertaining the baby sister never gets old. On top of that outings with the friends, there's always plenty to do. And I am actually trying to keep fit so I don't get so sick easily. So much win btw, you can accomplish more cleaning without feeling tired! Haha okay I kid, but while waiting for my "L" I have been driving around the area with mum in the car of course. Not forgetting cooking lunch for my siblings occasionally. Keeping up with my Bible reading, devotions and such. Practicing musical instruments again; picking up old dusty skills that i've neglected due to the busy-ness of my high school years.
IF THAT'S NOT ENOUGH, you get the point, I barely have time to breathe and do nothing. HA.
So basically this is me blogging, again. Hope you were annoyed, jokes.
God bless!
Wednesday 16 January 2013
#586 MY FAMILY
.......is the best.
The only one that would drive 4 hours to watch a 60sec race AND back.
And the best to me, they have never failed to be there at almost every race.
Grateful, Blessed, Loved.
JUSTSAYING.
The only one that would drive 4 hours to watch a 60sec race AND back.
And the best to me, they have never failed to be there at almost every race.
Grateful, Blessed, Loved.
JUSTSAYING.
#586 MY FAMILY
.......is the best.
The only one that would drive 4 hours to watch a 60sec race AND back.
And the best to me, they have never failed to be there at almost every race.
Grateful, Blessed, Loved.
JUSTSAYING.
The only one that would drive 4 hours to watch a 60sec race AND back.
And the best to me, they have never failed to be there at almost every race.
Grateful, Blessed, Loved.
JUSTSAYING.
Sunday 13 January 2013
#565 Transition stages
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| I LIKE BIG BIG PICTURES. |
My high school life has been pretty awesome, in that busy, hectic kind of way, but asking me now. I would never exchange missing classes for the wonderful people I've met. And miraculously, despite studying from August on wards I managed through SPM. Earlier, I was telling mum whether she thought I would get all A's. She said, if you do i'll be happy for you, but i know you did your best. :') So rare to hear these kind of things lately, but I guess her seeing me being locked in my room, and never wanting to eat has scared her a little. hahaha I could tell she was so worried. But nevertheless, God's grace is sufficient through it all. And finally, 4 years of blissful high school life is over. But it flew past just like that.
Now, the uncertainty that lies ahead, colleges, studying again, starting new. The thoughts can be really refreshing but terrifying. As much as I want to stick to everyone I know now, reality still exists and people do live separate lives in the end, just not so soon please? :( Because applying for somewhere apart from home seems like a really scary thing to do. It's like forever MSSM hostel life. Oh no, as much as I want to get in the though of it is up to God. Really, but studying without paying a thing is my dream. Hahah, it's probably the least i can do for my parents.
So, dear God, please grant me this opportunity. One special favour to return my parents.
TODAY:
service in church was about priorities hence;
[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNqdG50UVb4]
Where are your priorities? Planning to start 2013 with God, because I know this is going to be a long year. I just need to find where He is and stay there. LOLOL, having trouble doing daily devotions, and that will be my confession. For now, besides that I've been good, no worries :)
Everyone is headed off to college, and to be honest, staying at home is never boring when I have my Samantha with me. That girl drives me up the wall sometimes, but she never fails to make my day. Every time. :) Love spending time with the family. Hopefully getting a part-time job will not be too hectic, but I'm still praying that God will allow me to get the job I want. Which is for you to find out soon enough ;)
Here's a funny story about today I went all the way to U6BC where people play some really mean basketball by the way. The plan was initially collect a shirt I lend a friend. Well, I actually got the see them old classmates <3 But I didn't bring the shirt alone, and for that I hereby congratulate myself. *pats own shoulder*
:')
OK TIME TO SAY GOODBYE.
ps/
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEO VIVIEN!
#565 Transition stages
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| I LIKE BIG BIG PICTURES. |
My high school life has been pretty awesome, in that busy, hectic kind of way, but asking me now. I would never exchange missing classes for the wonderful people I've met. And miraculously, despite studying from August on wards I managed through SPM. Earlier, I was telling mum whether she thought I would get all A's. She said, if you do i'll be happy for you, but i know you did your best. :') So rare to hear these kind of things lately, but I guess her seeing me being locked in my room, and never wanting to eat has scared her a little. hahaha I could tell she was so worried. But nevertheless, God's grace is sufficient through it all. And finally, 4 years of blissful high school life is over. But it flew past just like that.
Now, the uncertainty that lies ahead, colleges, studying again, starting new. The thoughts can be really refreshing but terrifying. As much as I want to stick to everyone I know now, reality still exists and people do live separate lives in the end, just not so soon please? :( Because applying for somewhere apart from home seems like a really scary thing to do. It's like forever MSSM hostel life. Oh no, as much as I want to get in the though of it is up to God. Really, but studying without paying a thing is my dream. Hahah, it's probably the least i can do for my parents.
So, dear God, please grant me this opportunity. One special favour to return my parents.
TODAY:
service in church was about priorities hence;
Where are your priorities? Planning to start 2013 with God, because I know this is going to be a long year. I just need to find where He is and stay there. LOLOL, having trouble doing daily devotions, and that will be my confession. For now, besides that I've been good, no worries :)
Everyone is headed off to college, and to be honest, staying at home is never boring when I have my Samantha with me. That girl drives me up the wall sometimes, but she never fails to make my day. Every time. :) Love spending time with the family. Hopefully getting a part-time job will not be too hectic, but I'm still praying that God will allow me to get the job I want. Which is for you to find out soon enough ;)
Here's a funny story about today I went all the way to U6BC where people play some really mean basketball by the way. The plan was initially collect a shirt I lend a friend. Well, I actually got the see them old classmates <3 But I didn't bring the shirt alone, and for that I hereby congratulate myself. *pats own shoulder*
:')
OK TIME TO SAY GOODBYE.
ps/
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEO VIVIEN!
Tuesday 8 January 2013
If I had one day to live,
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| HMMMM |
If I had one day to live, everything would be so different.
no joke, if i had one day to live, I would tweet "JESUS LOVES YOU" a million times, yet, we all know its so different if we knew life is short.
There would be no time for sadness, for silly arguments, but plenty for everything else that would light up someone's face, tell them how much they mean to you, brighten your day. SIGHS, LIFE GOD, (TO BE CONTINUED ANOTHER DAY)
for now, please help me find a job, thats like kinda cool so Kor won't tease me, hehe, love you God. (Y)
12/1/13
Spent most of my day at church today to help mum in the all day prayer, which wasn't so tiring after all. And we had yummylicious chinese food afterwards so everything was worthwhile ;)
Tonight the family movie was Radio, here's a song thats so beautiful, CLICK. And if you feel like crying, this is the movie to watch, no joke, whole movie. You can cry throughout, hahah so inspring nevertheless. Here, find out more.
"The film was poorly received by most critics. On review aggregate Rotten Tomatoes, the film holds a 36% "Rotten" rating [2] and holds a score of 38 out of 100 on MetaCritic.[3]Common points of criticism included the excessively sentimental screenplay and music as well as the formulaic plot. However, the film found an audience, grossing $52,333,738 with a budget of approximately $35 million.[4]"
And I wonder what is wrong with the world? Seriously? They write a movie on a real boy's life and they say that. The film a fiction with blondes acting and fighting over boys and its acceptable? Hmm, plenty to think here.
Anyways back to the title, if I had one day to live. This movie has gave me plenty to think, for instance, once Coach Harold said, "But the truth is, we're not the ones that been teaching Radio. Radio's the one that's been teaching us.. He has treated everyone better than we'll ever treat each other." And I can't help thinking how have I treated others. OH I WILL JUST ADMIT, I have been super sarcastic :B And I'm still trying so hard to change, cause it's just being rude in a nice way, and I should and its 11 and tomorrow is church haha, till then!
TBC
If I had one day to live,
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| HMMMM |
If I had one day to live, everything would be so different.
no joke, if i had one day to live, I would tweet "JESUS LOVES YOU" a million times, yet, we all know its so different if we knew life is short.
There would be no time for sadness, for silly arguments, but plenty for everything else that would light up someone's face, tell them how much they mean to you, brighten your day. SIGHS, LIFE GOD, (TO BE CONTINUED ANOTHER DAY)
for now, please help me find a job, thats like kinda cool so Kor won't tease me, hehe, love you God. (Y)
12/1/13
Spent most of my day at church today to help mum in the all day prayer, which wasn't so tiring after all. And we had yummylicious chinese food afterwards so everything was worthwhile ;)
Tonight the family movie was Radio, here's a song thats so beautiful, CLICK. And if you feel like crying, this is the movie to watch, no joke, whole movie. You can cry throughout, hahah so inspring nevertheless. Here, find out more.
"The film was poorly received by most critics. On review aggregate Rotten Tomatoes, the film holds a 36% "Rotten" rating [2] and holds a score of 38 out of 100 on MetaCritic.[3]Common points of criticism included the excessively sentimental screenplay and music as well as the formulaic plot. However, the film found an audience, grossing $52,333,738 with a budget of approximately $35 million.[4]"
And I wonder what is wrong with the world? Seriously? They write a movie on a real boy's life and they say that. The film a fiction with blondes acting and fighting over boys and its acceptable? Hmm, plenty to think here.
Anyways back to the title, if I had one day to live. This movie has gave me plenty to think, for instance, once Coach Harold said, "But the truth is, we're not the ones that been teaching Radio. Radio's the one that's been teaching us.. He has treated everyone better than we'll ever treat each other." And I can't help thinking how have I treated others. OH I WILL JUST ADMIT, I have been super sarcastic :B And I'm still trying so hard to change, cause it's just being rude in a nice way, and I should and its 11 and tomorrow is church haha, till then!
TBC
Monday 7 January 2013
Mighty is the power of the cross,
Another song I heard in church, while waiting for the thanksgiving service to start, on the 31st. Here's the video. CLICK CLICK :)
The lyrics are so powerful;
What can take a dying man and raise him up to life again?
What can heal a wounded soul?
What can make us white as snow?
What can fill the emptiness?
What can mend our brokenness?
Brokenness
Mighty, awesome, wonderful
Is the holy cross
Where the Lamb laid down His life
To lift us from the fall
Mighty is the power of the cross
What restores our faith in God?
What reveals the Father's love?
What can lead the wayward home?
What can melt a heart of stone?
What can free the guilty ones
What can save and overcome?
Overcome
It's a miracle to me
And It's still a mystery
It's a miracle to me
The power of God
For those who believe
Thank You for the cross
Love the cross
So Powerful... ohh yeahh
What can take a dying man?
And raise him up to life again?
Worship You Jesus
By your wounds we are healed
By your wounds we are saved
Mighty is the power of the cross
Thank You Jesus for the Holy cross
Mighty is the power of the cross,
Another song I heard in church, while waiting for the thanksgiving service to start, on the 31st. Here's the video. CLICK CLICK :)
The lyrics are so powerful;
What can take a dying man and raise him up to life again?
What can heal a wounded soul?
What can make us white as snow?
What can fill the emptiness?
What can mend our brokenness?
Brokenness
Mighty, awesome, wonderful
Is the holy cross
Where the Lamb laid down His life
To lift us from the fall
Mighty is the power of the cross
What restores our faith in God?
What reveals the Father's love?
What can lead the wayward home?
What can melt a heart of stone?
What can free the guilty ones
What can save and overcome?
Overcome
It's a miracle to me
And It's still a mystery
It's a miracle to me
The power of God
For those who believe
Thank You for the cross
Love the cross
So Powerful... ohh yeahh
What can take a dying man?
And raise him up to life again?
Worship You Jesus
By your wounds we are healed
By your wounds we are saved
Mighty is the power of the cross
Thank You Jesus for the Holy cross
Sunday 6 January 2013
Today, on the 6th of January 1230 am,
5 minutes before I heard the news, I facebook messaged this guy.
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| MSSM 2012 |
Now, he's gone.
RIP always, wonderful friend.
May God bless you,
thankyou,
for teaching me to never give up no matter what comes in your way, and no matter how many times you fall down, get back up again. for the times we've talked about stupid people and how you punch them haha, and of course that was silly, you even said it yourself. yet, you are the only one that actually talks to everyone in the group, no matter who, you even once told me not to think of a person so quickly but to get to know him/her first, we may not talk much. But, thank you for all the stories that you told, just to keep me entertained when our SUKSES was over and my dad was running late. Training sessions with you always make me wanna persevere a little harder. Cause there's this guy who never gave up on his dream. You'll always be in our hearts.
you will be dearly missed,
prayers and thoughts to your loved ones.
Selangor will miss you. So will everyone.
SUKMA was the last, with you.
 You think you're taller than me, well, you can be taller than me now :)  |
| once a family, always a family |
Life is precious, dear God, humble us to live each day as though its our last.
Amen.
Today, on the 6th of January 1230 am,
5 minutes before I heard the news, I facebook messaged this guy.
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| MSSM 2012 |
Now, he's gone.
RIP always, wonderful friend.
May God bless you,
thankyou,
for teaching me to never give up no matter what comes in your way, and no matter how many times you fall down, get back up again. for the times we've talked about stupid people and how you punch them haha, and of course that was silly, you even said it yourself. yet, you are the only one that actually talks to everyone in the group, no matter who, you even once told me not to think of a person so quickly but to get to know him/her first, we may not talk much. But, thank you for all the stories that you told, just to keep me entertained when our SUKSES was over and my dad was running late. Training sessions with you always make me wanna persevere a little harder. Cause there's this guy who never gave up on his dream. You'll always be in our hearts.
you will be dearly missed,
prayers and thoughts to your loved ones.
Selangor will miss you. So will everyone.
SUKMA was the last, with you.
You think you're taller than me, well, you can be taller than me now :) |
| once a family, always a family |
Life is precious, dear God, humble us to live each day as though its our last.
Amen.
Friday 4 January 2013
#561 Self reflection Part 2
So I have come to it. What do I think about myself. Well clearly I let stress get to me, if it isn't obvious enough, if you see me after a race and the next person is 0.5 secs away I start to worry and think I suck. Which is so bad, and I tend to freak out in my head and I think too much. Yes thats it.
This year, I have done a silly thing.
Silly indeed, over thinking every. single. thing. Till it brought me to a point that I have my priorities all fogged and blurry, not knowing what really matters anymore. Its true when they say over thinking kills, not physically of course, mentally, slowly. It hurts loved ones and does uncountable silly things.
The only thing I regret so deeply, is not trusting God enough. With my life I mean. Not trusting that He knows best, and He has only nothing less than the best in mind. Sighs, hurting so many people in the process is so remorseful.
Thankfully and gratefully, the hardest part of 2012 is over. But then there came SPM, and I spent hours locked away in my room, apart from preparing myself to face the fact that my brother is thousands of miles away. Silly me again for denying that and actually thinking it to be a mere nightmare. Scarily, this nightmare became a reality for me. Ngeh, so easy to fake a smile so no one will know whats actually inside. And I tend to be so fake sometimes, ha, that is my confession.
So this comforts me so much. Knowing that every hardship and circumstances around me only make me who I am today. And that perseverance brings character. Hopefully, because God knows what He is doing. I pray everyday, for the strength to stay strong and to trust Him no matter how funny life gets and no matter how hazy things may be, how unclear chances are. I just have to pray for the faith of a child, that will believe just about anything. And I definitely need to pray for more discipline, to pray for others, and of course do my devotions everyday- not just when I'm free. Just because it's the least I can do. Heh.
Sorry, but thats just me, losing my brother to a faraway land has been hard for the family, this close knitted bunch of people we call family. Any hows, we survived. FEAR NOT, my 2012 wasn't so bad. There were many occasions, endless in fact, where I have to just thank God for everything nice and wonderful. Like getting the Selangor Olahragawati (which is the first I got besides school) and of course so many other running opportunities, open doors, and definitely walking me through SPM.
I still can't believe God didn't give up on me. BUT THAT'S MY GOD.
This year, I have done a silly thing.
Silly indeed, over thinking every. single. thing. Till it brought me to a point that I have my priorities all fogged and blurry, not knowing what really matters anymore. Its true when they say over thinking kills, not physically of course, mentally, slowly. It hurts loved ones and does uncountable silly things.
So this comforts me so much. Knowing that every hardship and circumstances around me only make me who I am today. And that perseverance brings character. Hopefully, because God knows what He is doing. I pray everyday, for the strength to stay strong and to trust Him no matter how funny life gets and no matter how hazy things may be, how unclear chances are. I just have to pray for the faith of a child, that will believe just about anything. And I definitely need to pray for more discipline, to pray for others, and of course do my devotions everyday- not just when I'm free. Just because it's the least I can do. Heh.
Sorry, but thats just me, losing my brother to a faraway land has been hard for the family, this close knitted bunch of people we call family. Any hows, we survived. FEAR NOT, my 2012 wasn't so bad. There were many occasions, endless in fact, where I have to just thank God for everything nice and wonderful. Like getting the Selangor Olahragawati (which is the first I got besides school) and of course so many other running opportunities, open doors, and definitely walking me through SPM.
I still can't believe God didn't give up on me. BUT THAT'S MY GOD.
#561 Self reflection Part 2
So I have come to it. What do I think about myself. Well clearly I let stress get to me, if it isn't obvious enough, if you see me after a race and the next person is 0.5 secs away I start to worry and think I suck. Which is so bad, and I tend to freak out in my head and I think too much. Yes thats it.
This year, I have done a silly thing.
Silly indeed, over thinking every. single. thing. Till it brought me to a point that I have my priorities all fogged and blurry, not knowing what really matters anymore. Its true when they say over thinking kills, not physically of course, mentally, slowly. It hurts loved ones and does uncountable silly things.
The only thing I regret so deeply, is not trusting God enough. With my life I mean. Not trusting that He knows best, and He has only nothing less than the best in mind. Sighs, hurting so many people in the process is so remorseful.
Thankfully and gratefully, the hardest part of 2012 is over. But then there came SPM, and I spent hours locked away in my room, apart from preparing myself to face the fact that my brother is thousands of miles away. Silly me again for denying that and actually thinking it to be a mere nightmare. Scarily, this nightmare became a reality for me. Ngeh, so easy to fake a smile so no one will know whats actually inside. And I tend to be so fake sometimes, ha, that is my confession.
So this comforts me so much. Knowing that every hardship and circumstances around me only make me who I am today. And that perseverance brings character. Hopefully, because God knows what He is doing. I pray everyday, for the strength to stay strong and to trust Him no matter how funny life gets and no matter how hazy things may be, how unclear chances are. I just have to pray for the faith of a child, that will believe just about anything. And I definitely need to pray for more discipline, to pray for others, and of course do my devotions everyday- not just when I'm free. Just because it's the least I can do. Heh.
Sorry, but thats just me, losing my brother to a faraway land has been hard for the family, this close knitted bunch of people we call family. Any hows, we survived. FEAR NOT, my 2012 wasn't so bad. There were many occasions, endless in fact, where I have to just thank God for everything nice and wonderful. Like getting the Selangor Olahragawati (which is the first I got besides school) and of course so many other running opportunities, open doors, and definitely walking me through SPM.
I still can't believe God didn't give up on me. BUT THAT'S MY GOD.
This year, I have done a silly thing.
Silly indeed, over thinking every. single. thing. Till it brought me to a point that I have my priorities all fogged and blurry, not knowing what really matters anymore. Its true when they say over thinking kills, not physically of course, mentally, slowly. It hurts loved ones and does uncountable silly things.
So this comforts me so much. Knowing that every hardship and circumstances around me only make me who I am today. And that perseverance brings character. Hopefully, because God knows what He is doing. I pray everyday, for the strength to stay strong and to trust Him no matter how funny life gets and no matter how hazy things may be, how unclear chances are. I just have to pray for the faith of a child, that will believe just about anything. And I definitely need to pray for more discipline, to pray for others, and of course do my devotions everyday- not just when I'm free. Just because it's the least I can do. Heh.
Sorry, but thats just me, losing my brother to a faraway land has been hard for the family, this close knitted bunch of people we call family. Any hows, we survived. FEAR NOT, my 2012 wasn't so bad. There were many occasions, endless in fact, where I have to just thank God for everything nice and wonderful. Like getting the Selangor Olahragawati (which is the first I got besides school) and of course so many other running opportunities, open doors, and definitely walking me through SPM.
I still can't believe God didn't give up on me. BUT THAT'S MY GOD.
Thursday 3 January 2013
#560 Self reflection?
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| sit, breathe, think. |
LOL can you believe reading Yeepei's blog has made me want to write this? I know it takes personal to a whole different level but I honestly haven't blogged properly in a very long time. Well, before I start here is another lyrics video of Chris August's Starry Night.
So it's a little bit too late since it's already 2013. I have a lot of time on my hands but i seem to be very busy. I have no idea why because it's always like one thing after the next. Any hows, I have so many things to write so I need to get it in order. Hm, first, there are still so many things I have learnt though.
I learned that my dad is a perfectionist, and not surprising, but Tiffany is one too. Heh and I have learnt a lot really. Like for once, nobody really tells you how they feel, but deep inside. mmm, the stories kept untold can be endless. I have met so many wonderful people this year.
Firstly, new classes, but these people are wonderful. Really.
Chun Yeaw; this cina I tell you. Crazy freak that thinks being tall means he gets to touch my head, pfft my friend, being tall is not the only thing in the world. And I am always awesomer than you cause that is eugenia logic okay? Thanks for being a great friend, and haha have fun being a lawyer, there you have it, your skill, talking a lot!
Dhiya; shes the craziest bubbly girl I've ever met, no matter how chatty she gets sometimes, the class is never the same without her.
Guo Zhi; ohman, this guy thinks i'm closed minded. Its just that I'm a Christian. And by right, we don't believe in gays/lesbians. And thats, that. Honestly, no one is born gay/les. God only made people of opposite sex to be "fruitful and multiply" Not do silly stuff and create sex related diseases like STD, and HIV. No one asked anyone to sleep around. And yet silly enough it happens, now we live in a world with millions affected by sex related diseases. Imagine the l ives of these babies who live each day with uncertainty if the disease will hit hard, or just give them another day to live. I think thats a strong enough reason. Now, do you still think i'm open minded? haha well, I will miss Physics tuition and asking you to shutup all the time. Talk more, and stay fit ;) haha.
Canesha; the different one who is bold about everything she likes, I admire how she stands strong for what she believes in and what she likes, and all her drama stories, and of course sharing stories of her M&G with "The Wanted" and etc. Will miss that drama queen telling Raviena about the latest news haha.
Raviena; and then there's Raviena. She's the girl who believes that I will be a superstar in the world out there, I mean get famous and all. She always reminds me to tell her not to forget her, haha but I enjoyed sitting behind her this whole year, very fun girl to trick ;)
Adilah; this genius. Don't let her "sleeping" fool you. No matter how much time she spends cheering or sleeping in class, she is one smart ass. Haha will miss making retarded jokes with her.
Then there's running. This is really an eye opener, but we will leave that for another day okay? Movie waiting for me! Yeap, the self reflection thing didn't go as planned, sorry. chaos.
xx
#560 Self reflection?
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| sit, breathe, think. |
LOL can you believe reading Yeepei's blog has made me want to write this? I know it takes personal to a whole different level but I honestly haven't blogged properly in a very long time. Well, before I start here is another lyrics video of Chris August's Starry Night.
So it's a little bit too late since it's already 2013. I have a lot of time on my hands but i seem to be very busy. I have no idea why because it's always like one thing after the next. Any hows, I have so many things to write so I need to get it in order. Hm, first, there are still so many things I have learnt though.
I learned that my dad is a perfectionist, and not surprising, but Tiffany is one too. Heh and I have learnt a lot really. Like for once, nobody really tells you how they feel, but deep inside. mmm, the stories kept untold can be endless. I have met so many wonderful people this year.
Firstly, new classes, but these people are wonderful. Really.
Chun Yeaw; this cina I tell you. Crazy freak that thinks being tall means he gets to touch my head, pfft my friend, being tall is not the only thing in the world. And I am always awesomer than you cause that is eugenia logic okay? Thanks for being a great friend, and haha have fun being a lawyer, there you have it, your skill, talking a lot!
Dhiya; shes the craziest bubbly girl I've ever met, no matter how chatty she gets sometimes, the class is never the same without her.
Guo Zhi; ohman, this guy thinks i'm closed minded. Its just that I'm a Christian. And by right, we don't believe in gays/lesbians. And thats, that. Honestly, no one is born gay/les. God only made people of opposite sex to be "fruitful and multiply" Not do silly stuff and create sex related diseases like STD, and HIV. No one asked anyone to sleep around. And yet silly enough it happens, now we live in a world with millions affected by sex related diseases. Imagine the l ives of these babies who live each day with uncertainty if the disease will hit hard, or just give them another day to live. I think thats a strong enough reason. Now, do you still think i'm open minded? haha well, I will miss Physics tuition and asking you to shutup all the time. Talk more, and stay fit ;) haha.
Canesha; the different one who is bold about everything she likes, I admire how she stands strong for what she believes in and what she likes, and all her drama stories, and of course sharing stories of her M&G with "The Wanted" and etc. Will miss that drama queen telling Raviena about the latest news haha.
Raviena; and then there's Raviena. She's the girl who believes that I will be a superstar in the world out there, I mean get famous and all. She always reminds me to tell her not to forget her, haha but I enjoyed sitting behind her this whole year, very fun girl to trick ;)
Adilah; this genius. Don't let her "sleeping" fool you. No matter how much time she spends cheering or sleeping in class, she is one smart ass. Haha will miss making retarded jokes with her.
Then there's running. This is really an eye opener, but we will leave that for another day okay? Movie waiting for me! Yeap, the self reflection thing didn't go as planned, sorry. chaos.
xx
Wednesday 2 January 2013
#589 Time heals all wounds,
140 days without my brother and i've become so numb in missing him. I cannot believe all the pain and frustration alongside SPM I went through, considering that I actually blogged a lot about the stress I was going through.
It was not easy, but I had to make it through. Well, now. I just miss my brother, I think next year he will be back for Christmas.
Hopefully.
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| Handshum boi, I took this picture. |
#589 Time heals all wounds,
140 days without my brother and i've become so numb in missing him. I cannot believe all the pain and frustration alongside SPM I went through, considering that I actually blogged a lot about the stress I was going through.
It was not easy, but I had to make it through. Well, now. I just miss my brother, I think next year he will be back for Christmas.
Hopefully.
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| Handshum boi, I took this picture. |
Tuesday 1 January 2013
My 2012 in pictures
RUNNING:
SUKSES
MSSD
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| Running family :) |
Had the time of my life with the schoolmates, it has been a great journey training, and all the politics we faced together. The lunches after training. The MPSJ track. Hiding the 5 cent coin haha. And everything, i'm going to miss the guys so much. :(
MSSS
Another family, green blue, black. We did everyone proud this year, but so close yet so far. First olahragawati outside school. :) And I clocked my second best timing. Loved being the "older sister"
MSSM
Ikal, the MSSM bestie. Love her ttm. The most retarded best friend ever. I mean we could be so close in such a short time. Love her.
Seniors!
ALL MAH BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS
Enjoyed all the teasing and the crazy moments training together.
MERENTAS DESA
SPORTS DAY
holding that trophy again, thankyou God :)
CHAMPS OF SPORTS DAY 2012- GREEN HOUSE
SUKMA
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| They drove to kuantan to see me run, I have the best family in the world, (TO ME) |
*****
SCHOOL/OTHERS
BOMBA COMPETITION, with the runners
*****
JOE BROOKS'
@KL LIVE
@KL LIVE
*****
SUBANG RALLY
*****
HARI ANUGERAH
******
❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
People I love:
KOR
ohmykor, I miss you so much. Every day is still different without you. Today finally, someone actually used your mug, with your name on it, and it has been kept that long. Well, sometimes I wake up and wonder why you're being such a pig and sleeping so long. But 5 seconds later I realise your room is my study room. There are days when I come down and almost ask if you're awake, or what time you came home the previous nights. And they are also days when the NFL notifications lights up and I will think of you. Distance has been awfully mean to us both and I'll always miss you being around as a brother and a friend. But I have to learn to move forward, accept the circumstances. Because I find so much comfort knowing that God has planned your future, as well as mine. So kor, I miss you dearly, but it's for the best. Study hard, but most importantly stay close to God, because He knows you better than me ;)
Much love.
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| The family. |
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| Cousins + Grandma |
oh the cousins, they will never read this cause we don't really know each other ONLINE. But in the real world, man, we're best buddies after days. People get to know each other for a lifetime before being friends. We're just friend for a lifetime. Really, from cooking breakfast, to bathing dogs, long walks, and complaining about mothers. Hahah my 17 year old neph and cous. We 3 are unstoppable. Really. ;) Miss them to the bits but I know that God has the future planned out for every one of us, so see you both in 6 months aye? Gawai! :)
TZE JING
HEEEEY RETARD. 2012 has been so aweshum ah. Friends for barely two years but seriously, the amount of teasings I get, countless. But I know your life will be very dull without me. Oh oops, I mean the other way around. Hahah thank you for being so awesome, and all the retarded moments we have. From singing in the dewan to annoy TS to calling YP short hehe. Have fun future lawyer, love you!
YEEPEI
Ahyo, kiew ah kiew. IDK what to say la. You are like the most popular girl in school lo, pretty, everyone likes you but you think too much. Really, you are wonderful, but you don't know it. I hope you learn to learn yourself more, stop writing emo posts cause it makes people emo too. Stio reading emo books, be more confident okay haiyo. Promise me to always be happy, I like being around you cause you're shorter than me. Hahaha, and you know I love you, and your driving. ;)
TSUI SAN
HELLO DAUGHTER! 2 years classmates when everyone left :( But we had such retarded moments this year. Haha. Thanks for always tolerating my nonsense and making me shut up sometimes, and telling me when teachers are scolding. Best table mate, love youu baby.
YATKUAN
HIHIHIHIHIHIHH^^ hahaha I didn't know you earlier but it has been so awesome to know that you think i'm not retarded. Right now you are eating maggi mee on skype with Jing, so retarded. But I love you anyways, know you've been through a rough year, no worries, 2013 will be great! :)
MISS CHOO CHOO
heylo. classmate, addmath tuition buddy. You and your sister have been so nice to me, from shopping for prom dresses in KL to crazy car rides. Thank you for letting me come over before/after tuitions and the undang, thanks for helping me stay awake. Hhaha and I will miss all the retarded moments we have in class, all the crazy lame ass jokes and whatsapp convos. *SIGHS. We are so lame. BUT, hahaha, love you la. :)
JIA
in 2009 we had 3 pictures together
in 2010 we had 2
in 2012 I'm pretty sure less than 15
Yea. Thats us jia, no matter what you'll always be the best lala. Sorry for always not replying your texts back then (during running season) and taking you for granted sometimes. Hehe, you're so nice, and I wish you the best always. And thanks for the advice, and being like a big brotha. :) Stay buff. Hahaha.
VIVIEN
HI BIMBO FRIEND, omg I will never forget you and your nerd act in class, no joke. I laughed my ass off literally. And thank you for the late night talks, in Nise's house. Hahah reality hits hard. But you've always been a good friend, so thank you for spending November 12 not studying but instead coming to Pizza Uno for my birthday.
PRYA
Best friend of idk how many years, I'll always cherish the moments we have. And all the crazy times we had together, you'll always be my favourite indian. Love you prya. :)
CHENG YU WEI
Heylo cheng yu wei, I miss you and your funny laugh. Come back from camp quick. Its been an awesome year for CF eh. Really, but miss the CF meetings, your the kind of person that really knows what matters in life, in CF and although we got distracted by SPM we made it through the year. It's been great going camp, getting to know you and hahaha the Justin Bieber video we did on valentines day. Well, wishing you all the best in everything, I know you'll go places and do great stuff, amazing things for Jesus. Continue being a blessing to everyone you meet okay? You made CF 2012 unforgettable, along with every single member of CF.
CHENG YI
Another girl who has impacted my life so greatly. Your raw simplicity and honesty about life, and how you see things has changed my way of seeing things too. Being in camp with you was something cause I learnt so much. Sorry for "stealing" your best friend away, haha Clarissa is just really friendly, but i'm glad I got to earn another best friend in the process; you. You've always been there for me, and I want to thank you for always helping us stay positive in every CF meeting and gently reminding us when we go wrong. I have so much to learn from you, and I hope you do well in everything. You will continue to touch others around you I believe, continue shouting God's fame. You, shy? Nah don't think so.
ALEX, your mini head is there. Thank you for all the encouragement, and for sharing your thoughts with me. You're going to have a fine year KP. Hope that 2013 goes well for you, and I hope I can be there when you need me too. Continue shining for Jesus in everything you do bro.
EU-NISE
hello there everything buddy. I thank God for placing you in my life. I've written so many posts about you, just scroll down. Frankly, you've been through alot this year, and your faith and hope in God is something I admire. Wish the best for you in everything, and thanks for the prayers before each run. ;)
So many others who have impacted my life, but thats all for tonight. wrote till midnight, wanted it to be a new years post, but oh well, 2nd Jan 2013 it is. :)
'Till then
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