Saturday 21 May 2016

in God alone

So I have come to the point of the summer where all the grades are up. I am surprisingly amazed at how I did. For some reasons, even thought I didn't ace all my classes my CGPA went up. But the last sentence - the fact that I didn't ace all my subjects just honestly brought me to tears and made me so very sad for some reasons. I didn't know how to cry. After a long, hot, shower, I scrolled on FB and found this. I am undone.
"Our circumstances can easily rule our emotions if we let them. But God doesn’t want us to be at the mercy of our varied life events, or the hopeless perspective we can sometimes have about them. Rather than getting swept up in the whirlwind of daily events, we should become rooted in the solid foundation of God. Practically speaking, this means leaning on God’s character and seeking after His perspective."
Ah Jesus, here I am again.
“What comes into our minds when we think about God is the most important thing about us.” 
― A.W. Tozer
I've asked myself this so many times, what do I think about Jesus? What is the first thing that comes to my mind? And if I were to be honest, I would say distant, or just feel clueless about the whole question. This semester honestly felt so lost. This past year I would say. Jesus felt so distant. For some reasons, I just never experienced him the way I usually do. Some days everything falls into place, some days they don't. Yet, here I am, with another crazy year done and Jesus just leading me into a place where He constantly reminds me of his plans for my life. I can say that the last year has been so difficult for me. I've been discovering so much - about myself, how to function away from home, how to function in leadership, or with friends even. I can say that I have never stopped learning this semester, in every sense.

It may always seem difficult, and at times Jesus may seem so far, but honestly, once I stop looking at the waves that comes crashing in - only then will I be able to have peace and trust that His plans are the very best. So, here's to another excellent semester. Painted out the way Jesus wanted it to be.

“The reason why many are still troubled, still seeking, still making little forward progress is because they haven't yet come to the end of themselves. We're still trying to give orders, and interfering with God's work within us. God never hurries. There are no deadlines against which he must work. Only to know this is to quiet our spirits and relax our nerves.” 
― A.W. Tozer

Monday 9 May 2016

you have taught my feet to dance upon disappointment

of course it is finals week and I am here again. gracing my dusty old blog with my presence.

hello there. I can say for the first time in ages, I have a peace that is rather scary. Let's just say that I am so done trying to worry because I know it will not help me whatsoever, so here is one of my favourite verse and an updated page of my favourite quotes.

20 Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, 21 being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. 22 This is why “it was credited to him as righteousness.”
Romans 4:20-22


Yes, I just captioned a 'Brave New World'. That album is gold. Okay. All the best!