Let me tell you why. I randomly found a song from an Indonesian band - JPCC True Worshippers. When I was listening to the album, I wasn't aware that it was titled: "Favor". But towards the end of this song, yes not even the song itself, it was the part where the guy starts talking after a song (like they do after worship), he said this: "The challenges/situations you are facing right now is only for the season, but His favor lasts for a lifetime."
The word favor means so much to me. I am undeserving and I know that Jesus has been too kind to me. He blesses me with opportunities and things that I can never receive without His strength. Before leaving to study, people have often prayed favor over me. Always, at every low point of my life He always pours out so much favor on me. The worst part is that I've never really thanked Him or acknowledged His presence, His favor. Often crediting myself for my hard work. Pffft, what hard work? Its all HIS work. He doesn't receive the praise He deserves, yet He keeps pouring out unconditionally.
He is my strength when I have none,
He is my wisdom when I need it,
He is my help when I have no one to turn to;
He is my never failing rock.
I won't say I am at a low point right now but I am definitely worrying too much. What a mean thing to do - not trusting in His favor. He must be so offended (not).
But today, I am reminded. I am thankful and grateful to be reminded. I cannot believe this is MY Jesus.