two decades

hello, here I am again. One year has past and it has been a journey. Welp. Time for another recap:

November (2014)
So on my birthday last year after the craziest journey of applying for a scholarship - I was finally granted the official contract. I got to celebrate my birthday at home with Mom.

December (2014)
Kor's homecoming. So finally, after 3 years, the brother flew home. We went to Sarawak for a whole two weeks. Spent good time with family. Also, I learnt so much about the family history. Stories that were never told, somehow, uncle and aunty would randomly tell. These stories encompasses the ancestry and its relation with religion, beliefs or rituals (like norms/customs). I am learning so much more about Dad's tribe and slowly understanding why we are the way we are. Other than that, I learnt how to appreciate good drinks. I also learnt that I turn beet red when I drink. Also, don't take shots without dilution. But in all seriousness, getting to spend Christmas (and new year) with the whole family together was priceless. Although we didn't make a big deal out of the celebrations (partly because we were all tired from travelling), it was nice to be together. I also got to sit down with the brother to talk, just the two of us. And man, it was probably one of my favourite months.

January
After New Year, I had four days to pack. On the fifth, I left for the states. Coincidentally, that was the coldest week of the winter. I lost my luggage and only got it one week later. Flights were delayed, bags were lost. Walking around campus was plain miserable. Orientation was tiring and not at all helpful. We were lost. Basically, I was lost. I did not know what I was stepping into. School started. I failed my first Physics & Calc test. Joined Antioch, a church. Found a lifegroup

February
I cried every skype call. Things got miserable. School was so different. It was cold. Cold cold days. But the roommate and coffee makers/tv nights makes life a little better. Went for the Fullness Conference at Antioch. Met Jeremy Riddle, heard Graham Cooke speak. Learnt about living in peace, and simple faith. The Graham Cooke way.

March
Spring break came around. Best one week of my life, spent with the Brother. Went to the Grand Canyon. Decided I like the black guiness stout. Had the best oranges. Had super good mexican food. Felt at home in ASU because the diversity there was amazing.

April
School got harder. But I adjusted to the system. School became a routine I was used to. Joined clubs. Met more people in church and lifegroup.

May
Finals/flying home! Finally got to spend family time. Got to celebrate friend's birthday. Felt so so good to be home and be with mom and dad. The humid air was tough - the adjustment to the food was weird. But it was all so nice. Being home

June
Landed an internship in KL. Commuted everyday and sat as the intern. Learnt that working life is hard because you have to decide what to wear every, single, day! Spent more time with friends. Learnt how dangerous the city can be. Took the train everyday.Took a summer class and got it done.

July
Independence day! Summer school started. met a Rice kid - Albert. Spent all of our days together, cause lab lasted till 3/4-ish. Brought Jose to lifegroup. Summer lifegroup was fun! So much fun being able to spend time with friends.

August
Classes ended. Plans cancelled. Spent time in Norman. Lived with Nosi for abit. School started. Met the E305 boys and basically went over everyday till I was deemed as ' the fifth roommate '.

September
The weather became colder. School was school. Started interning for lifegroup.

October
Turner falls. The Nyanats got married.Exams, School. Church. Life. Really bad days, and Jesus just showing me how much He cares event then. Countless miracles.

November
School. Homesick (cause birthdays) Thanksfeast. Just life with Jesus. So exciting. He makes everything worth it. Life is never mundane, when Jesus is by your side. When you don't have what you need, you realise that Jesus can be your homie anytime, anywhere yo.


Wow, I cannot believe a year passed by that fast. For real. Even though days seem to crawl by at times, one year flew by. I know that ^ was so vague. But honestly, God's faithfulness has been so real to me this year. I don't even know how to count the number of times I've tried to give up. I've felt extremely disheartened, hopeless. I've cried myself to sleep, cried over skype, cried over letters. Yet Jesus always sits by me and to find comfort at that point of disappointment is something worth believing for.

I do not know where to begin. God is so faithful and so real. All you have to do is just tell Him you trust Him with your life. His love goes beyond distance, and I love that. I love how He inspires me to love everyone I know, just because everyone needs a little bit of Jesus in them.

WELP. Good bye teen years!


Till then

1 Samuel 12:24

But be sure to fear the Lord and serve Him faithfully with all your heart; consider what great things He has done for you. (NIV)

Perfect timing.

Romans 12:12 AMP

Rejoice and exult in hope; be steadfast and patient in suffering and tribulation; be constant in prayer

Needed this. 100 days.

Please God

I don't want to set my hopes and expectations up; just to watch it crush me again.

Please. I speak open doors into the plans You have for me that are of good and not evil. To give me a future and a hope. I hope my strength will suffice; let me not falter. But to trust that You have the best in mind. Nothing less than the best.
Hanging on to Your every word & promises.

Mini Shell Recruitment Day (Shell Malaysia MSRD)

Hello everyone.
Feeling so relieved as the interview is finally over. During the interview some of the interviewers were a little bit surprised that the format of the interview for the SRD is available on blogs online. However, this will not reveal everything worry not. It will definitely show the format/timeline of the SRD I experienced.

So we were called to be at Menara Shell by 6.45 am. The program was set to be until 12pm. Miss Doria and Miss Siti greeted us before 7 and they told us to register, First we were registered into visitor IDs. We have to go through safety protocols. After everything was cleared we were invited into a meeting room. 6 of us. I was the only girl.
The first person I met while waiting was Nicco. He's a Sabahan born in Labuan. Currently in his first year at UniTEN studying Electrical Engineering.
Then Hafiz came, he was Philip's schoolmate - SMK Melawati if i'm not mistaken. He is currently on break I think, applying for Geo Science in Colorado/Nebraska, USA.
Samuel Soh is a first year student at Imperial College, London studying Mechanical Engineering.
Roland Adrian, undergoing his ADP hoping to transfer to the States to study Mechanical Engineering.
Last but not least, Thafiq from UTP (Universiti Technology Petronas) first year first semester. Afterwards there was another session but we didn't get enough time together to get to know them.
Anyway when we were assembled in the meeting room we were instructed to read a 9 page case study. We had 45 minutes to read through. We were a team of 6 interns going off-shore. 6 things were taken into consideration and we were give a huge sum so we had to hold a meeting to agree on how to allocate our finance.
We had a little break while waiting for the other interviewers to arrive. Meanwhile we had breakfast prepared. Manage to talk to one of the panel - Mr. Harriah, He was very open about his experience. But anyways, back to the meeting. We all introduced ourselves and then the "meeting" started, It only lasted for 25 minutes. It was generally just a discussion.
Next for my schedule, I was assigned for the individual case study presentation. We were given a few options of increasing production, saving cost etc and we were asked to present it to the "Project Manager" for 15 minutes. We had 45 minutes to prepare/read up.
I got into the room Mr. Harriah was in and after my "Analysis" was done he really hit me with though questions that made me think. This was during the 10 minute Q&A session. But I managed in the end.
Later on I was given 45 minutes to write on a piece of paper to ask a question that I would ask in an actual meeting if I were to execute the plan above (referring to the analysis I just presented). The paper was divided into 3 parts: Questions, Explanation, Rationale (I THINK). Not very sure already.
Finally, the last stage was the personal interview. I got two very nice interviewers. They asked me:

• about challenges I faced
• changes I had to adapt
• a new skill I learned
• etc..

I had to "walk them through" my experiences. So I talked about my experiences and they were very relaxed and cool about it. Was not very nervous throughout because they are very friendly and not at all stuck-up people. Despite their many years of experience they actually treated us like decent adults. It was a cool building - they had O'Briens in the meeting floor! Super cool environment.
Quite an experience I must say. All the best future applicants!

Lord, I Need You

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Idk where to put my hope in now apart from you. Please, I know You will never let me down. Thank you. Please teach my song to always rise to you, when I cannot stand. Be my hope.

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2 Peter 3:9

"The Lord is not slow to fulfil his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you,^[a] not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance."

Just Getting By

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best fran leaving today :(

8 Important Reasons To Let Go Of People Who No Longer Play An Important Part In Your Life

Read an interesting article earlier about letting go. (Read more here) Frankly I think it may be a little bit selfish to leave a friend just for the following reasons listed. However, no. 6 and no.7 really hit me. I think I am done trying to keep people in my life. Really. So tired of trying to catch up with people when they reluctantly make excuses.

So tired. Done trying. I'll just see who cares enough to stay.

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"If someone truly loves you, cares for you or wants and needs you, the person will never allow you to invest disproportionate effort."

So

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you can keep me, inside the pocket of your ripped jeans.
Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone

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 Kinda like this song by Ed Sheeran. This version is the best though. On the plus side we are on holidays! Got to love the Malaysia diversity - every race celebrates different holidays. Consequently: more holidays. Work has been hectic as usual. Quiet days are becoming more scarce. During the day lunch hour gets busy too mehh. Shockingly lost weight from not having proper meals the first week. But I finally got the day shift.

My first night of the Raya holidays well spent :) Went to Subang Rally 2014: Limitless. Sat with Zheng and his Monash friends. The response for the altar call was amazing. God is amazing. Love that God is moving so widely among the youths in Subang. John 14:12 always.

Till then! God bless!

Romans 5:1-10

"1 Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. 2 Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

6 For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. 7 For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— 8 but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. 9 Since, therefore, we have now been justified by his blood, much more shall we be saved by him from the wrath of God. 10 For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by his life. 11 More than that, we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation."

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My heart pours out to families affected in the recent events of MH17. May you find strength amidst the storms and look to God for the answers.

#np

The recipe for friendship:

1/3 SELF-SACRIFICE
1/3 LOYALTY
1/3 REAL COMMITMENT

I was overwhelmed when I listened to the NLT version of 1 Samuel today. (Yes go listen to audio bibles on your Bible app or via online here) The friendship between Jonathan and David left me in tears.

In life, we have probably have had countless acquaintances, many friends, but how many do we consider our close friend? Or "best" friend.

Everybody needs that friend whom you can share your hopes and dreams with. The one who will encourage you in pursuing those dreams yet rebuke you when you are going down the wrong path. A friend who is there not only through the good times, but also the bad—through thick and thin. Someone who will stand by you (and maybe for you) when the world is against you.

It is true that the test of trials simply reveal a true friendship. It is easy because you rarely find that. The busy life of the modern society has left little time for interaction but more for "self-discovering" or in other words "me time". Friendship sometimes may seem like a chore. Often asking how a person is, bothering about their daily routines and little joys they share; friendship seems like a mundane task of always pestering someone and insisting on being in that person's life, just to show you care. And more importantly that you are there when they need you. Rare? Indeed. It is undoubtedly true that friends may come and go, but to have a lifelong, close, personal friendship is truly a great blessing.

Many years ago, a beautiful friendship was formed between two of the most unlikely men of their society:

Jonathan was a prince

A prince of Israel's very first King. Destined to rule in the event of his father's death - he had everything he wanted. He could meet anybody he wanted and chose his friends from the most valiant of princes. People of status and wealth. Jonathan was aware of the blessings he would receive if his father was obedient. Yet, he remained the God-fearing, bold, determined man that he was. A mighty warrior himself, Jonathan relied on God and trusted in His strength. For instance when he and his armour bearer were instructed, they both went up against twenty Philistines. This inspired courage in his father and the army which led to a victorious battle.

David was a shepherd

The youngest of the family, David was left to tend the sheep. He was a gifted musician, a wise and prudent warrior and also very good looking. But David too was destined for the throne. He was married to Saul's daughter Michal and this made him a prince and Jonathan his brother-in-law. Saul knew that if David was not taken care of Jonathan would never be king.

Despite their differences, "(ESV) the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul. (ERV) He would not let David go back home to his father. After David finished talking with Saul, Jonathan developed a strong friendship with David." Jonathan realized that they shared much in common in the areas of courage, bravery, strength, loyalty, trust and faith in God. They had an instant liking.

David and Jonathan

Jonathan was willing to forego his throne for David. He loved David so much he disobeyed his father to save David's life. Often he would warn him before any trouble could befall on David. He would travel to see David and ensure that his loyalty was made known to David. Jonathan even made a pact: (1 Samuel 20:14-16, NLT) "And may you treat me with the faithful love of the Lord as long as I live. But if I die, treat my family with this faithful love, even when the Lord destroys all your enemies from the face of the earth.” So Jonathan made a solemn pact with David, saying, “May the Lord destroy all your enemies!”" By saying this, Jonathan knew that David's enemy was his own father - King Saul. Yet he made this pact with David. He even tried to reason with his father and defended David's innocence. Due to life-threatening circumstances David had to run for his live. Nevertheless from then on, they were separated but their friendship stood till the end.

Wow. There is much to learn from the friendship of Jonathan and David. They were both princes of Israel, one by birth, the other by marriage. Both were in line to assume the throne of Israel. Both were mighty men of valor and were respected and trusted by the men they led in battle. Each had accomplished great feats, relying on God for victory. They were zealous, driven, resourceful, courageous, bold, meek, humble and so much more. They knew and respected government, wielded authority, and served those under and over them. They were loyal to one another and to their king. David would never lay a hand on Saul even though he was given the chance to. He revered God's choice of appointing him as the first King of Israel.

In todays context, they could have been enemies and rivals, yet they set aside jealousy, resentment, bitterness, competition and lust for power (A THRONE HEY), choosing instead to become the closest of friends. They knew how and when to laugh, cry, show their emotions, share hopes and dreams together, thereby cementing their friendship forever. They were real men, who understood what it meant to lay down their lives for one another.

Wow, have you ever thought of dying for a friend? Even today, giving a lift, sacrificing precious time, going out of your way for a friend seems like a monumental task. What more to say dying for a friend? No exaggeration but sometimes I feel like people really take their friendships for granted. Selfish as we humans are we rarely prioritise anyone other than ourselves. Everything must have a benefit - even our friends. Really? Just because he'll be a worthy connection for future businesses? Because she can help do your assignments. Because you need him to explain to you that formulae you didn't really understand.

Seriously... how fake can we get? Sadly I've seen it. Heard of it.

How blessed are we if we ever are privileged enough to have just a small part of David and Jonathan's friendship. So much to think.

Got me thinking too - what kind of friend am I?

 

Articles referred to: RCG, FERVR

What do we believe in?

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"We Believe" - a song by Newsboys that speaks our faith clearly; I like what the lyrics speak

In this time of desperation
When all we know is doubt and fear
There is only one foundation
We believe, we believe
In this broken generation
When all is dark, You help us see
There is only one salvation
We believe, we believe

We believe in God the Father
We believe in Jesus Christ
We believe in the Holy Spirit
And He's given us new life
We believe in the crucifixion
We believe that He conquered death
We believe in the resurrection
And He's comin' back again, we believe

So, let our faith be more than anthems
Greater than the songs we sing
And in our weakness and temptations
We believe, we believe!

We believe in God the Father!
We believe in Jesus Christ!
We believe in the Holy Spirit!
And He's given us new life!
We believe in the crucifixion!
We believe that He conquered death!
We believe in the resurrection!
And He's comin' back again!

Let the lost be found and the dead be raised!
In the here and now, let love invade!
Let the church live love our God will save
We believe, we believe!
And the gates of hell will not prevail!
For the power of God, has torn the veil!
Now we know Your love will never fail!
We believe, we believe!

We believe in God the Father
We believe in Jesus Christ
We believe in the Holy Spirit
And He's given us new life!
We believe in the crucifixion!
We believe that He conquered death!
We believe in the resurrection!
And He's comin' back,
He's comin' back again!
He's comin' back again!
We believe!
We believe

Credits

Because life is like those photo frames. Only when placed together - a whole picture is formed. Notice the differences of each frame. Each experience, stage in life, so different yet similar in another way.

Apologies for the long hiatus, well, I haven't really wrote properly in a long long time. Sometimes I really wish to write long long rants to pour out how I feel but I feel so tired - emotionally. In all modesty, I realise how much of a human I am. I think I lost a friend, whom has always been there through everything. Since running and then on. The thing is no matter how far we drift apart talking again feels only natural. Guess it is my turn to feel it now. On top of it all -
How do I phrase this; well I've been unintentionally stirring up unnecessary conflicts. Well, lately Mom and I don't really reason things out fairly. Mostly my fault? I cannot say much. Most times, I feel like I let my parents down. I look at myself and I feel tempted to even deceive myself into believing I am a failure. But I know with Jesus I will never be one. And I feel reassured again.

This walk of faith; of doing nothing. Oh the irony, but to be honest without God I would never be so grateful today. The one thing I've realised to be ever so true:

Grace is not based on my performance.

Grace is not based on my performance.

Grace is not based on my performance.

(repeat)

I have to admit, I am a pretty negative person. I know some might not agree to that but hear me out. Some nights, I tend to replay the day (especially the bad parts), and worry about the future a lot. I don't know why I cannot help it, I just beat myself up. When Jesus takes care of the birds of the air, and clothes the lilies, here I am alive and well yet worrying for tomorrow. Ignorant me.

Nevertheless, I am so grateful for people who always remind me that when things go down, I should look up. Two men have played an important role in my life for reminding me when I need it. The older brother gave me a call after my scholarship news (it was postponed) came out. He knows me way too well. I ended up crying - but of course not showing it because sissies cry. He really told me to snap out of it. Dad too, he tells me to always find the good in everything. Frankly, sometimes when the storms overwhelm, I cannot help but to fear it instead of trusting Him to calm the storm for me.

Devotions today pierced my heart. Proverbs 12:25 teaches us to speak words of encouragement. Speak life into your hopes and dreams. Speak life to yourself.  I have been thinking about it a lot. I really need to ponder on scriptures like this constantly.

So much for a long post, heh. I should safely conclude by this: Hopes, disappointments, regrets. Paid for two thousand years ago, when my Jesus died for me.

Are you willing to take up the cross and lay down your burdens?

Am I?

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"Anxiety in a man's heart weighs him down,
    but a good word makes him glad."

― Proverbs 12:25 ESV

“When someone is broken, they don’t necessarily want someone to fix them. They just want to find someone who will make sure they don’t break anymore.”

— Zaeema, “broken people”

Fade

haha okay the title was intentional, but my love for lame chick flicks are fading. There are way to many adaptions of novels made into movies. New ones coming up from non-literature. The point is.... I think I am finally sick of chick flicks/movies. Well for some I have to make an exception because no doubt I would want to watch it. But I am reminding myself that I cannot possibly watch all. (I wanted to watch every.single.romcom no joke)

I just hate the endings of it. Its probably like a hangover except its felt on the inside. What is worse is that when you flip to the last page, you have to face reality again. And it keeps getting worse - like how all the chick flicks paint bad/mysterious guys as flawless. The hero/prince charming/boyfriend in the novels will always be perfect. Always. No matter what crooked, shady past he's been through it will always change when he meets her. And it keeps going downhill when you dream you can actually have that kind of perfect (totally fake) relationship in real life. I mean... life is the real deal.

Whoever thought of deluding girls with impossible hopes of finding love, popularity or whatever. They thought wrong. It shouldn't be so delusional. Yes we want to escape reality sometimes, but throwing impossibly perfect stories in our faces. Now that is too much really. But then again, there are some exceptions that I would make.

What am I really trying to say? We should know whats real and whats not. Thats all.

 

That is why, I am proud to say that I've been reading "Speeches that change the world" (well apart from my Bible of course). Some of the phrases in the speeches that has left me thinking:

"..wherefore your Creator loveth you much, seeing that He hath bestowed on you so many benefits; and therefore, my little sisters, beware of the sin of ingratitude, and study always to give praises unto God."

― St Francis

"I could hold my peace very well, if I did not think that holding my peace would make some men think that I did submit to the guilt as well as to the punishment"

― King Charles I

Fake

Lately, I never let myself cry when watching movies (except when alone). And remembering friends flying off too. I've never showed that I would really miss them when I know its the exact opposite. Instead I will choose to babble on about a stupidly pointless topic, then go like, "Oh bye bye, you don't forget us okay, see you soon!"

What's worse is that I can never really show how sad I am. I can never deliver bad news without a "Hahahaha" or say how I really feel without a "Jokes", "Kidding okay? " Instead I start over thinking.

I must say. I am so very tired and exhausted of feeling disappointed in myself. Not letting anyone know the seriousness of it all. Like for example, I would say: "I didn't pass my math test. Hahahah lol." When as a matter of fact there isn't anything to even laugh at mind.

What I hate the most. The most I must say, is how much I love silence but feel obligated to prevent it anyways. Obligated is the word because I feel like when it is too quiet I need to ensure everyone in the conversation feels included. Not because silence is awkward; but because silence is awkward. Do you get what I mean? I somewhat think that the silence will cause them to feel uneasy and not like to be around me. Especially when people disagree. Ohmygoodness, the obligation I feel is equivalent to that of a mediator - trying to smooth any little crease that makes itself present. And hence, trying to be sensitive, I try.

Maybe I really need to care less. Think less. Speak less. See less. Rant less. Please, remember these things Eugenia.

"Swift to listen, slow to speak."

That sharp turn,

 

Hello, I've been stuck in a denial phase the past few days. Feeling so dazed. Taking a step back, let me explain myself. When I decided to take a semester off I knew exactly how it will turn out. I would either:

1. Get the scholarship
2. Not get the scholarship

These were solely, the only possible outcomes. And yet, when it happens you still feel so confused. The series of events these past few days have left me.... disheartened. First of all, the British scholarship probably didn't like my essay, and right now; the career day (last interview) for Shell is scheduled to be held only in August. Wow. Way to close some doors in your face. Well, point taken. But then again closed doors leads to other doors. This much I know is true.

Someone told me, if God has destined for you to do something (eg. be a teacher) and you choose to be a Dr. instead, you are not living out God's plan for your life. No matter how much success you may attain as a Dr., to God; you may not be considered successful. Sad, and ugly truth. But somewhat reassuring, the fact that hopefully I am walking into a path that He considers successful.

So, I have concluded. Sometimes life takes a very sharp, painful turn. Sometimes all you hoped and dream for ain't the best. Only God knows best - true story. Mom asked me to check out universities in the states/UK, but the test dates and entry dates don't coincide. Sadly. I am honestly feeling too disappointed to comb through the internet and look for universities/entry requirements/email. So.

Whats next? Another walk of faith then - trust required.

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The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

― Deuteronomy 31:8

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.

 ― Joshua 1:9

For the word of the LORD is right and true; he is faithful in all he does. The LORD loves righteousness and justice; the earth is full of his unfailing love. By the word of the LORD were the heavens made, their starry host by the breath of his mouth.

― Psalm 33:4-6

Leap of faith

I think I am already taking one, but worrying can never add to my stature. So why worry. Feeling a little bit relieved and happy when the scholarship panel said she will contact me on Monday. She seemed so please I already got into Monash U.

One step at a time. Journey hasn't even started. Need to have answers when people ask me, "So, what are you doing now?", "Wow, you're still on holidays?".

Soon, soon.

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22 And he said to his disciples, “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat, nor about your body, what you will put on. 23 For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. 24 Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds! 25 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?

― Luke 12:22-25

Cures for disappointments.

I didn't get shortlisted for 1 of my scholarship applications. As easy as it is to be tempted to feel sad and disappointed I don't think I should. I need to rid myself of thinking I've failed. But instead, I should know that to everything there is a season and I determine to fully trust God. Any door He opens no one can close. I am very certain of that.

The Bible gives me so much assurance and comfort right now.

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I know that whatever God does, it shall be forever. Nothing can be added to it, and nothing taken from it. God does it that men should fear before Him.

― Ecclesiastes 3:14

God's Not Dead

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMjo5f9eiX8

For those in doubt. Living in a world like today often leaves us questioning about God. Is He dead? This movie might answer your questions. Maybe. Worth a try - after all, what is life?

What Makes a Dad/Hero

God took the strength of a mountain,
The majesty of a tree,
The warmth of a summer sun,
The calm of a quiet sea,
The generous soul of nature,
The comforting arm of night,
The wisdom of the ages,
The power of the eagle's flight,
The joy of a morning in spring,
The faith of a mustard seed,
The patience of eternity,
The depth of a family need,
Then God combined these qualities,
When there was nothing more to add,
He knew His masterpiece was complete,
And so,

He called it ... Dad