shout out to everyone who has been there for me. thank you for skipping hw time for me. thank you for the food. thank you for all the kind messages and the random visits of blotchy faced Eugenia. thank you for the prayers when I couldn't pray. thank you for the concern. thank you for crying with me. thank you for believing for me. thank you for the space and the understanding. thank you for fighting for me and helping me take this to heart, even when I cannot believe it, but "Jesus is, and will always be good". thank you for reminding me that He has never left.
most importantly, thank you for being my family and for constantly celebrating Grandma's life for me and with me. so glad that no matter where we go into the world, Jesus throws the best reunion parties and I will see all of your beautiful faces always and forever. so glad that Jesus chose everyone of you to be in my life.
community amazes me every. time. y'all are nothing but the best of the best.
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
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Saturday, 3 September 2016
the party in heaven pt. 2 // s h e f o u g h t //
I've spent my whole life, wanting to be with Jesus. But human as I am, the only way I can fully be with Him is to leave this world. I've had heard of people's passing, and felt at peace that they've had solace. But this time, it was time for someone I love to leave this earth, to leave this place of sickness and misery. I find myself not knowing how to let go and feel peace, and this scares me. I could not talk to God even though I knew he has made her whole and well. I just didn't want to be jealous that she is in heaven now and not here on earth. Clearly, I was not ready to let someone so dear go. With so much on my mind, I will try to capture the essence of who Inik was to me.
Over the recent years, grandma got really sick. Grandma was always strong, independent and kind. She raised 9 amazing kids, unique in their own way, yet so powerful in their own spheres of influence. Their successes were always celebrated and in return she too got to travel the world, see places, and proudly tell her friends that her kids are so successful. But she never knew that when she had to almost single handedly feed and send the kids to school. She worked hard.
Then we came along - the third generation. Oh so spoiled, both my grandmas would come to take care of every child that was born in my family. They fed us, bathed us, baby sat. As a child, I never made sense of anything or of what that meant to me. And truth be told I only got closer to her as her health started declining. Oh I can hear her nodding sarcastically at my jokes already but, in hopes of keeping her spirits up, I was constantly teasing her. We would have specially prepared guest rooms, but I would still sleep next to her on her bed. Whenever I wanted to hang out with my cousins and just sleep in the living room, she would look for me the very next morning. But those were Christmas breaks. Growing up, I only got to call her and see her once a year. Yet we got close somehow. She is funny, she is so strict and yet so kind. She is unmoved, stubborn in her own way, she is steadfast.
It struck me when I saw her burial. That whenever I visit now, Inik will not be in the living room lounging around or making us keep our bags. I would have to go to a hill to visit her. All I want to do now is put some flowers on her grave and hug my dad. As hard as it is, she remains a memory that is etched deeply on my heart. And though her physical presence may not be here. We celebrate her life and we are so blessed that Jesus has given her the invitation to the party of a lifetime and more.
Over the recent years, grandma got really sick. Grandma was always strong, independent and kind. She raised 9 amazing kids, unique in their own way, yet so powerful in their own spheres of influence. Their successes were always celebrated and in return she too got to travel the world, see places, and proudly tell her friends that her kids are so successful. But she never knew that when she had to almost single handedly feed and send the kids to school. She worked hard.
Then we came along - the third generation. Oh so spoiled, both my grandmas would come to take care of every child that was born in my family. They fed us, bathed us, baby sat. As a child, I never made sense of anything or of what that meant to me. And truth be told I only got closer to her as her health started declining. Oh I can hear her nodding sarcastically at my jokes already but, in hopes of keeping her spirits up, I was constantly teasing her. We would have specially prepared guest rooms, but I would still sleep next to her on her bed. Whenever I wanted to hang out with my cousins and just sleep in the living room, she would look for me the very next morning. But those were Christmas breaks. Growing up, I only got to call her and see her once a year. Yet we got close somehow. She is funny, she is so strict and yet so kind. She is unmoved, stubborn in her own way, she is steadfast.
It struck me when I saw her burial. That whenever I visit now, Inik will not be in the living room lounging around or making us keep our bags. I would have to go to a hill to visit her. All I want to do now is put some flowers on her grave and hug my dad. As hard as it is, she remains a memory that is etched deeply on my heart. And though her physical presence may not be here. We celebrate her life and we are so blessed that Jesus has given her the invitation to the party of a lifetime and more.
"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing."
2 Tim 4:7-8
the party in heaven pt. 1 // e u l o g y //
I will not say Inik left too soon because that would be selfish. Inik is in a better place now, she's well and she's whole. She is also with Aki and niang Jemat, but most importantly Inik is with Jesus. When Inik first got sick, I was sent to ensure she drank water, had meals and so forth. I teased her all the time, and she would laugh at all of my jokes, sometimes til she was in tears. She loves pork, and is picky with fish. She can be sassy and funny. While I know she carries so much, so much wisdom, so much love, so much experience, she also carried all our burdens. As a family she always knew the meaning of sacrifices and I don't even have to listen to stories as her life itself shows how much she gives for the happiness and success of others. I have never and will never think of grandma as anything but strong. She fought well and now she has finished well. Although her departure will leave us pain and much sadness, we also rejoice and celebrate her life today. One that I've been blessed enough to witness. Our pain and sorrows will be for this season, but may we find comfort in Jesus. I hope when we remember her, we also remember how to be strong, how to love ferociously, and sacrificially. But most of all when we remember her, and how faithfully she has been blessed, may we also remember Jesus is and will always be good.
*****
Aku ngai nyebut Inik nadai terlalu awal. Inik diatu udah ba alai ti pemadu manah begulai ngau Jesus ba serga. Ari Inik mula sakit suba, slalu ku diasuh orang pulai ngabas ya ngau nyaga ya maya ku bisi cuti. Ku slalu nundi ya awak ka ya ketawa, kdg kdg ya ketawa smpai nyabak. Ya sigi milih amai nti makai. Ya sigi ngai makai utai bukai, mesti ka makai babi kicap ngau asi aja. Ya nyamai dibai betundi. Ya sigi rindu ka kami, ya berpenemu dlm myuh utai. Ya amat rindu ka kami enggau slalu mai kami dalam sampi ya. Aku deka seruran ngingat ka Inik sebagai Inik ti kuat, kering. Inik udah bendar belaban ngelaban penyakit ya. Diatu ku percaya ya udah gerai ngau begulai ngau Apai di serga. Diatu kami sigi sinu ngenang nuan ti udah nadai Inik, tang saritu kami ngau gaga ati ka ngenang pengidup nuan Inik. Taja pan aku bedau ulih nerima brita nuan udah nadai, tang aku amat amat bersyukur ulih begulai ngau nuan tiap kali maya gawai terutama skali gawai taun tu. Kami deka slalu ingat ka Inik, ingat ka penyayau ya ngagai kami. Tang kelebih agi kami deka slalu ingat ka kesetiaan Inik enggau betapa pengidup Inik udah diberkat. Awak ka ati senang ngau bersyukur dalam Yesus ari tuk, laban ea udah pulai. Awak kami tuk, ingat Inik, kekuatan ea, cinta ea pada kami. Namun yang paling penting tuk awak kami tuk ingat kesetiaan Inik pada Yesus lalu ingat Yesus kami tuk selalu baik ati. Selalu dalam ati kami selamanya.
Isaiah 61:3 Meri ngagai sida ke ngulit di Sion Pengaga enggau pengelantang, kena nganti ati ti tusah, Pantun puji, kena nganti ati ti sinu. Sida deka nyadi baka kayu Ti ditanam TUHAN. Semua sida deka ngereja utai ti ngena, Lalu Allah Taala deka dipuji ketegal semua utai ti udah dikereja Iya.
Till we meet in heaven, meanwhile, party for us aight Inik?
Monday, 30 March 2015
spring break 2015 pt 2
Here is a list of some things I got to do over the spring break:
So yeah, that was pretty much how I spent my days. Kor was pretty busy but he spent so much time with me nonetheless. Been so blessed to catch up and spend time with this boy.
- study & finished all my homework
- Ate cereal (snowflakes) everyday for breakfast
- tan at a nearby pool
- walk around ASU campus (and witness very cold rain - rare occasion)
- hike up camelback
- Drove to Flagstaff
- Visit the beautiful, breath taking Grand Canyon
- Watched Cinderella
- Had a super-good-and-yummy bowl of acai from Chopshop
- Cruised on the lake - with the boat
- Shopped the whole day
So yeah, that was pretty much how I spent my days. Kor was pretty busy but he spent so much time with me nonetheless. Been so blessed to catch up and spend time with this boy.
Thursday, 4 December 2014
Six years later
Time felt like a speed train. But Uncle J, I'll never forget the way you held us, they way your voice boomed when you spoke. The way you so gently cared for all your children, nieces & nephews.
I cannot believe time has passed so fast. But you were the closest family that I lost. And today, rest assured, we all still remember and love you so dearly.
I know you are looking down, free of pain & sickness, watching over your family, grandma, and all of us. We miss you, as always.
Rest in peace always - 04/12/2008
I cannot believe time has passed so fast. But you were the closest family that I lost. And today, rest assured, we all still remember and love you so dearly.
I know you are looking down, free of pain & sickness, watching over your family, grandma, and all of us. We miss you, as always.
Rest in peace always - 04/12/2008
Saturday, 15 November 2014
781
Earlier this evening, Dad said something that upset my sister. No, it was not something as dreadful as her reaction. In fact it was so minor if Dad said it to me, I would have just shrugged it off.
But my baby sister is so used to reacting a certain way. I wouldn't call it a tantrum, but she throws one of these fits and starts grunting/complaining.
Mind you. She does this frequently.
Being the youngest and most spoiled - this kind of behaviour is usually excusable.... except that she has been doing so much of it lately.
So I told her off, told her to start acting like a big girl and speak with words and explain why she was frustrated.
She did not stop immediately, but eventually she grew quiet. Then, she left the room cause my other sister told her to.
About an hour later, she came in telling us she was going to bed already. She apologised and said "Sorry Jie".
Whoaa.
Okay, let me backtrack here and enlighten you a little bit. My baby sister is invincible. The whole too-cute-and-youngest-child-so-I-cant-do-no-wrong thing is really her. Anything she does is forgivable - hence she lacks the need to actually apologise for anything. If I remember correctly, she never apologise unless instructed to do so (or it is really her fault - she can't find a way to avoid the blame). So you see, she's always forgiven quickly.
But today, she apologised. To me. This can only mean one thing - baby girl is finally growing up!
Just had to write sorry, okay bye! :) Have a great Sunday everyone, God bless!
But my baby sister is so used to reacting a certain way. I wouldn't call it a tantrum, but she throws one of these fits and starts grunting/complaining.
Mind you. She does this frequently.
Being the youngest and most spoiled - this kind of behaviour is usually excusable.... except that she has been doing so much of it lately.
So I told her off, told her to start acting like a big girl and speak with words and explain why she was frustrated.
She did not stop immediately, but eventually she grew quiet. Then, she left the room cause my other sister told her to.
About an hour later, she came in telling us she was going to bed already. She apologised and said "Sorry Jie".
Whoaa.
Okay, let me backtrack here and enlighten you a little bit. My baby sister is invincible. The whole too-cute-and-youngest-child-so-I-cant-do-no-wrong thing is really her. Anything she does is forgivable - hence she lacks the need to actually apologise for anything. If I remember correctly, she never apologise unless instructed to do so (or it is really her fault - she can't find a way to avoid the blame). So you see, she's always forgiven quickly.
But today, she apologised. To me. This can only mean one thing - baby girl is finally growing up!
Just had to write sorry, okay bye! :) Have a great Sunday everyone, God bless!
Thursday, 3 July 2014
Because life is like those photo frames. Only when placed together - a whole picture is formed. Notice the differences of each frame. Each experience, stage in life, so different yet similar in another way.
Apologies for the long hiatus, well, I haven't really wrote properly in a long long time. Sometimes I really wish to write long long rants to pour out how I feel but I feel so tired - emotionally. In all modesty, I realise how much of a human I am. I think I lost a friend, whom has always been there through everything. Since running and then on. The thing is no matter how far we drift apart talking again feels only natural. Guess it is my turn to feel it now. On top of it all -
How do I phrase this; well I've been unintentionally stirring up unnecessary conflicts. Well, lately Mom and I don't really reason things out fairly. Mostly my fault? I cannot say much. Most times, I feel like I let my parents down. I look at myself and I feel tempted to even deceive myself into believing I am a failure. But I know with Jesus I will never be one. And I feel reassured again.
This walk of faith; of doing nothing. Oh the irony, but to be honest without God I would never be so grateful today. The one thing I've realised to be ever so true:
Grace is not based on my performance.
Grace is not based on my performance.
Grace is not based on my performance.
(repeat)
I have to admit, I am a pretty negative person. I know some might not agree to that but hear me out. Some nights, I tend to replay the day (especially the bad parts), and worry about the future a lot. I don't know why I cannot help it, I just beat myself up. When Jesus takes care of the birds of the air, and clothes the lilies, here I am alive and well yet worrying for tomorrow. Ignorant me.
Nevertheless, I am so grateful for people who always remind me that when things go down, I should look up. Two men have played an important role in my life for reminding me when I need it. The older brother gave me a call after my scholarship news (it was postponed) came out. He knows me way too well. I ended up crying - but of course not showing it because sissies cry. He really told me to snap out of it. Dad too, he tells me to always find the good in everything. Frankly, sometimes when the storms overwhelm, I cannot help but to fear it instead of trusting Him to calm the storm for me.
Devotions today pierced my heart. Proverbs 12:25 teaches us to speak words of encouragement. Speak life into your hopes and dreams. Speak life to yourself. I have been thinking about it a lot. I really need to ponder on scriptures like this constantly.
So much for a long post, heh. I should safely conclude by this: Hopes, disappointments, regrets. Paid for two thousand years ago, when my Jesus died for me.
Are you willing to take up the cross and lay down your burdens?
Am I?
"Anxiety in a man's heart weighs him down,
but a good word makes him glad."
― Proverbs 12:25 ESV
“When someone is broken, they don’t necessarily want someone to fix them. They just want to find someone who will make sure they don’t break anymore.”
— Zaeema, “broken people”
Sunday, 15 June 2014
Johore
Part 1: zoo
Part 2: Desaru beach
Paradise? No edits for these two, not even colour. Cleanest beach since Redang.
Thats it for now. :)
Wednesday, 11 June 2014
Travels
Back from a getaway with the family. Okay no not really Dad was there for work. But stay tuned, pictures will be up soon. We visited one of the cleanest beach ever. Was refreshing, but so dang tiring. Must be worse for Dad, we dropped him off at the airport. Another trip for him. Praying for God to grant him strength. Lately he is feeling so uncomfortable and constantly getting sick. :/ Nevertheless, that reminds me to pray more.
More updates soon.
More updates soon.
"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him."
― Psalm 62:5
Sunday, 27 April 2014
#625 Hey brother,
There's an endless road to rediscover,
We can go, penang Char kuay tiaw and Asam Laksa!
hahah. Never been a fan of rave and Aviici kinda music till the kids in Cambodia make me listen to it. Idk if I spelled it correctly. Haha anway, being back home is nice. Very very nice, sometimes I wish my brother was home now too. Oh the joy, I can only wait for the day he comes home - and pray I'll be home too.
Well, Kor if you were home now we'd be in the mamak watching you swallow down plates of Maggi Goreng and whatever you feel like having. Hee.
One day.
Till then, lets focus on the present blessings. Beyond blessed to have grown up with so many cousins. Despite the distance, Kor always say, "Blood is thicker than water."
Wishing my cousins - Ignatius, Cyreah, and Sharon a very happy birthday. April babies. Spent the whole day out with them today (legs almost killed me shhh don't tell my mummy ). I don't know if I will be able to fly back this Gawai.
About my knees, this Friday is my scan. Hoping they will be able to diagnose the problem. Would appreciate prayers!
GOD BLESS!
Ps/ today Obama came to Malaysia. Figured it's worth mentioning just for memories sake.
Pps/ A good read about dating/courtship. Just another perspective.
#625 Hey brother,
There's an endless road to rediscover,
We can go, penang Char kuay tiaw and Asam Laksa!
hahah. Never been a fan of rave and Aviici kinda music till the kids in Cambodia make me listen to it. Idk if I spelled it correctly. Haha anway, being back home is nice. Very very nice, sometimes I wish my brother was home now too. Oh the joy, I can only wait for the day he comes home - and pray I'll be home too.
Well, Kor if you were home now we'd be in the mamak watching you swallow down plates of Maggi Goreng and whatever you feel like having. Hee.
One day.
Till then, lets focus on the present blessings. Beyond blessed to have grown up with so many cousins. Despite the distance, Kor always say, "Blood is thicker than water."
Wishing my cousins - Ignatius, Cyreah, and Sharon a very happy birthday. April babies. Spent the whole day out with them today (legs almost killed me shhh don't tell my mummy ). I don't know if I will be able to fly back this Gawai.
About my knees, this Friday is my scan. Hoping they will be able to diagnose the problem. Would appreciate prayers!
GOD BLESS!
Ps/ today Obama came to Malaysia. Figured it's worth mentioning just for memories sake.
Pps/ A good read about dating/courtship. Just another perspective.
Wednesday, 5 June 2013
#578 Blessed abundantly,
Last week, during the Gawai weekend. I was blessed enough to have 5 whole days of holiday. No classes whatsoever. Even better yet, mid-semester tests were just over, besides IT. But considering everything, it was so pleasant to be able to take a breather.
After IT class at 6 I called Uncle, later he fetched me out for dinner with his family. Then we went back to a cousins house for a couple of hours. I did EMA.. to make sure someone was awake. Sharon was arriving at midnight. Unfortunately, she was delayed for hours. Literally, we came back home bt 2am. That leaves us only 2 hours to sleep. Left at 5, (that was supposed to be 4) Dead tired. Slept in the car the whole way. Till we reached the ferry, what a beautiful sunrise. Although the ride was short, I was super excited.
Day1-
Honked everyone and they all woke up when we reached! That was day one- gawai eve. 31st May. Quickly changed, helped around. Ate so so so so much. And slept for 6 whole hours, in the other house. No one disturbed me, the poor sick and tired girl.
That night, gawai eve. Stayed up doing EMA and when the music was too loud, I joined the adults who were drinking till Gawai. Went next door, where the adults moved too and drank my first taste of kampung beer lol. Not bad they bring Jack Daniels from town... which isn't as strong. Then, I played bowling, on the tab with Philemon which increasingly grew into a challenge AND PUSH-UPS as punishment. Uncle and dad joined hahahah so funny. Control Macho ttm. Slept at 2.
Day 2-
Woke up at 6 am to the neighbours karoake who... did not off it the whole night. No one knows if they sang through the night, but man. It. was. loud. Showered and etc. And then Rantai came when we were washing the dishes. Thats when our gang was complete. Raimus was already there. So on Gawai day, we got bored of people visiting and eating... we went to fetch Kor kor Ugene somewhere. And we set off. The guys brought me around Sebuyau.
First we went to the quarry which was "Private property" and restricted. Ngehe. No one was working.
Then, I requested to see my Grandfather's tombstone. The same place as my dear uncle; The late Mr. Jemat. Oh man, the road we used was kinda scary and steep down from the quarry. And the crevice of the bombing site where they get the stones from was.... lets just say I couldn't see the floor. But all was well, took a short walk to the graveyard. When we reached, we cleaned it up a bit. Went home, first to Raimus' place, then home. We all showered, cause it was a must for us after coming back from places like these. Soon, we just stayed around that evening. Ate alot. Visit some people. And then that night we wanted to watch a movie in the other house, but it didnt play. So we watched it in the main house, but the little kids hogged the place so me, Mus and Tai sat and talked, in the dark watching the movie from so far .__. But they guys were kind enough to update me about their love lives. ahhahaa, love them to bits.
Day 3-
Woke up and showered in cold freezing water. Mind you everybody was so pissed because we didn't have water. Only the water stored. Hence making washing dishes, showering and cleaning up very very difficult. Hmmmmm, what did I do. In the morning the guys went out. Leaving me behind to clean and clean. Then when they got back I watched a movie. And they left me behind. They all went to the ferry, thinking I was asleep :( Never mind, all is forgiven. Then, we showered, and at night I went over to the other house. We had a really deep talk about God. It was surreal, my cousins so passionate for Him too. This makes me overwhelmed. That night we went out to buy some fire cracker, through the quarry way. Zomg, this was a one time experience, 4 drunk guys suddenly drove behind us. And Mus quickly sped. Rantai was infront luckily. The guys chased us till the shop house. But left soon enough. They asked Raimus a question but he just stared. We went our way- to look for an uncle who was lost. Thank God he made it safely home. Who knows how dangerous it could be roaming around at night. All the uncles were out searching for him. Made everyone worried. We decided to spent the night at my Aunt's place, Raimus' grandmother. We reached at around 1. Showered and talked till 2. When we finally went to the sofas, Rantai fell asleep lol. The nephew, man, he has good memory. We were talking about life, till I had no voice. No joke. It was his last night with us that night :'( It was also his birthday that night/next day.
3rd June
Day 4- Raimus' birthday.
Me and Tai rushed home the next day to go shower. Visiting the graveyard again. After what seemed like a lifetime of waiting for the ENTIRE family to be ready we set off. One lorry and one MPV. When we payed our respects, clearing up in the heat seemed like nothing. The overwhelming emotions seen by my cousins', aunty and daddy too. That made me almost break down. Both the late Aki and Uncle left at a very young age. :'( I remember so many things, but just talking about it makes me sad. When we wanted to leave, two things happened. The truck could not on. And one motocycle's chain snapped. 6 of us were stranded in the bus stop. Cousin and family went to visit their other side family's graveyard. We waited. Before going home, we dropped by the market to see if we could get any cake for Mus. Sadly, none was available. Bought icing instead and decided to ice his name on a layered cake. Finally got my chocolate to good use as we made it as frosting. We found a very decent marble cake to frost. It turned out like this.
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| With his mom and sister |
After he left, everything was rather gloomy. But nevertheless the endless karoake sessions and dancing ahhaha it was cool. People came over till midnight. We were all dead tired. No joke.
Day 5-
the next day went by in a blur.
I went out visiting to take care of little Maxson.
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| Ferry ride home. |
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| Uncle's new ride |
Day 6-
We all separated in the morning. They left at 8 am. We left at 10 am. Went back to Kuching, using Uncle's brand new Mitsubishi. Fuh, nice car. Had lunch with them and they dropped us at the house after some shopping. After that we went for a movie. Me tha and dad.
Love them to the bits, dropped me at hostel and they left for home the next morning.
Things I can never forget;
the stars that light up the WHOLE skies. crystal clear.
late night talks with them cousins.Why I am blessed;
Without any preparation, everyone came back. Cousins far and near, besides kor and Tiff. From everywhere. It was one of the most complete gathering. Unplanned for. Got to meet all the dear ones.
ps/ will update with pictures real soon.
#578 Blessed abundantly,
Last week, during the Gawai weekend. I was blessed enough to have 5 whole days of holiday. No classes whatsoever. Even better yet, mid-semester tests were just over, besides IT. But considering everything, it was so pleasant to be able to take a breather.
After IT class at 6 I called Uncle, later he fetched me out for dinner with his family. Then we went back to a cousins house for a couple of hours. I did EMA.. to make sure someone was awake. Sharon was arriving at midnight. Unfortunately, she was delayed for hours. Literally, we came back home bt 2am. That leaves us only 2 hours to sleep. Left at 5, (that was supposed to be 4) Dead tired. Slept in the car the whole way. Till we reached the ferry, what a beautiful sunrise. Although the ride was short, I was super excited.
Day1-
Honked everyone and they all woke up when we reached! That was day one- gawai eve. 31st May. Quickly changed, helped around. Ate so so so so much. And slept for 6 whole hours, in the other house. No one disturbed me, the poor sick and tired girl.
That night, gawai eve. Stayed up doing EMA and when the music was too loud, I joined the adults who were drinking till Gawai. Went next door, where the adults moved too and drank my first taste of kampung beer lol. Not bad they bring Jack Daniels from town... which isn't as strong. Then, I played bowling, on the tab with Philemon which increasingly grew into a challenge AND PUSH-UPS as punishment. Uncle and dad joined hahahah so funny. Control Macho ttm. Slept at 2.
Day 2-
Woke up at 6 am to the neighbours karoake who... did not off it the whole night. No one knows if they sang through the night, but man. It. was. loud. Showered and etc. And then Rantai came when we were washing the dishes. Thats when our gang was complete. Raimus was already there. So on Gawai day, we got bored of people visiting and eating... we went to fetch Kor kor Ugene somewhere. And we set off. The guys brought me around Sebuyau.
First we went to the quarry which was "Private property" and restricted. Ngehe. No one was working.
Then, I requested to see my Grandfather's tombstone. The same place as my dear uncle; The late Mr. Jemat. Oh man, the road we used was kinda scary and steep down from the quarry. And the crevice of the bombing site where they get the stones from was.... lets just say I couldn't see the floor. But all was well, took a short walk to the graveyard. When we reached, we cleaned it up a bit. Went home, first to Raimus' place, then home. We all showered, cause it was a must for us after coming back from places like these. Soon, we just stayed around that evening. Ate alot. Visit some people. And then that night we wanted to watch a movie in the other house, but it didnt play. So we watched it in the main house, but the little kids hogged the place so me, Mus and Tai sat and talked, in the dark watching the movie from so far .__. But they guys were kind enough to update me about their love lives. ahhahaa, love them to bits.
Day 3-
Woke up and showered in cold freezing water. Mind you everybody was so pissed because we didn't have water. Only the water stored. Hence making washing dishes, showering and cleaning up very very difficult. Hmmmmm, what did I do. In the morning the guys went out. Leaving me behind to clean and clean. Then when they got back I watched a movie. And they left me behind. They all went to the ferry, thinking I was asleep :( Never mind, all is forgiven. Then, we showered, and at night I went over to the other house. We had a really deep talk about God. It was surreal, my cousins so passionate for Him too. This makes me overwhelmed. That night we went out to buy some fire cracker, through the quarry way. Zomg, this was a one time experience, 4 drunk guys suddenly drove behind us. And Mus quickly sped. Rantai was infront luckily. The guys chased us till the shop house. But left soon enough. They asked Raimus a question but he just stared. We went our way- to look for an uncle who was lost. Thank God he made it safely home. Who knows how dangerous it could be roaming around at night. All the uncles were out searching for him. Made everyone worried. We decided to spent the night at my Aunt's place, Raimus' grandmother. We reached at around 1. Showered and talked till 2. When we finally went to the sofas, Rantai fell asleep lol. The nephew, man, he has good memory. We were talking about life, till I had no voice. No joke. It was his last night with us that night :'( It was also his birthday that night/next day.
3rd June
Day 4- Raimus' birthday.
Me and Tai rushed home the next day to go shower. Visiting the graveyard again. After what seemed like a lifetime of waiting for the ENTIRE family to be ready we set off. One lorry and one MPV. When we payed our respects, clearing up in the heat seemed like nothing. The overwhelming emotions seen by my cousins', aunty and daddy too. That made me almost break down. Both the late Aki and Uncle left at a very young age. :'( I remember so many things, but just talking about it makes me sad. When we wanted to leave, two things happened. The truck could not on. And one motocycle's chain snapped. 6 of us were stranded in the bus stop. Cousin and family went to visit their other side family's graveyard. We waited. Before going home, we dropped by the market to see if we could get any cake for Mus. Sadly, none was available. Bought icing instead and decided to ice his name on a layered cake. Finally got my chocolate to good use as we made it as frosting. We found a very decent marble cake to frost. It turned out like this.
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| With his mom and sister |
After he left, everything was rather gloomy. But nevertheless the endless karoake sessions and dancing ahhaha it was cool. People came over till midnight. We were all dead tired. No joke.
Day 5-
the next day went by in a blur.
I went out visiting to take care of little Maxson.
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| Ferry ride home. |
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| Uncle's new ride |
Day 6-
We all separated in the morning. They left at 8 am. We left at 10 am. Went back to Kuching, using Uncle's brand new Mitsubishi. Fuh, nice car. Had lunch with them and they dropped us at the house after some shopping. After that we went for a movie. Me tha and dad.
Love them to the bits, dropped me at hostel and they left for home the next morning.
Things I can never forget;
the stars that light up the WHOLE skies. crystal clear.
late night talks with them cousins.Why I am blessed;
Without any preparation, everyone came back. Cousins far and near, besides kor and Tiff. From everywhere. It was one of the most complete gathering. Unplanned for. Got to meet all the dear ones.
ps/ will update with pictures real soon.
Friday, 3 May 2013
GE 13.
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| Lately, |
I have been a little bit selfish and prayers have been revolving around me and myself heh. I never pray enough for the country, but today, a day before elections. I would just dedicate this post, to God. As a prayer, for the nation.
Dear God,
Thank you for the many years of protection and blessings that you have poured out on Malaysia. Protection from natural disasters, diseases and so much more. As the people, we ask for Your forgiveness fro taking what we have for granted help us all to instead whisper words of gratitude instead of murmuring complains all the time. Even as the results of the election will be out soon enough, I pray that the whole process will be smooth. And that this time, votes will be counted justly. Thank you for Your plans and purposes for this beloved country. Your will be done on Malaysia, and we surrender the ultimate fate of our nation; into Your loving hands.
In Jesus MIghty Name,
Amen.
MUM TIFF AND SAMANTHA ARE HERE to vote, and visit me, and mama too. I LOVE MY FAMILY, really. I missed them so so so much. Will update soon, but here's a thing to ponder on: WHAT HAVE YOUR THOUGHTS BEEN ABOUT LATELY?
YEAP I'M THINKING TOO
GE 13.
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| Lately, |
I have been a little bit selfish and prayers have been revolving around me and myself heh. I never pray enough for the country, but today, a day before elections. I would just dedicate this post, to God. As a prayer, for the nation.
Dear God,
Thank you for the many years of protection and blessings that you have poured out on Malaysia. Protection from natural disasters, diseases and so much more. As the people, we ask for Your forgiveness fro taking what we have for granted help us all to instead whisper words of gratitude instead of murmuring complains all the time. Even as the results of the election will be out soon enough, I pray that the whole process will be smooth. And that this time, votes will be counted justly. Thank you for Your plans and purposes for this beloved country. Your will be done on Malaysia, and we surrender the ultimate fate of our nation; into Your loving hands.
In Jesus MIghty Name,
Amen.
MUM TIFF AND SAMANTHA ARE HERE to vote, and visit me, and mama too. I LOVE MY FAMILY, really. I missed them so so so much. Will update soon, but here's a thing to ponder on: WHAT HAVE YOUR THOUGHTS BEEN ABOUT LATELY?
YEAP I'M THINKING TOO
Tuesday, 1 January 2013
My 2012 in pictures
RUNNING:
SUKSES
MSSD
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| Running family :) |
Had the time of my life with the schoolmates, it has been a great journey training, and all the politics we faced together. The lunches after training. The MPSJ track. Hiding the 5 cent coin haha. And everything, i'm going to miss the guys so much. :(
MSSS
Another family, green blue, black. We did everyone proud this year, but so close yet so far. First olahragawati outside school. :) And I clocked my second best timing. Loved being the "older sister"
MSSM
Ikal, the MSSM bestie. Love her ttm. The most retarded best friend ever. I mean we could be so close in such a short time. Love her.
Seniors!
ALL MAH BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS
Enjoyed all the teasing and the crazy moments training together.
MERENTAS DESA
SPORTS DAY
holding that trophy again, thankyou God :)
CHAMPS OF SPORTS DAY 2012- GREEN HOUSE
SUKMA
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| They drove to kuantan to see me run, I have the best family in the world, (TO ME) |
*****
SCHOOL/OTHERS
BOMBA COMPETITION, with the runners
*****
JOE BROOKS'
@KL LIVE
@KL LIVE
*****
SUBANG RALLY
*****
HARI ANUGERAH
******
❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
People I love:
KOR
ohmykor, I miss you so much. Every day is still different without you. Today finally, someone actually used your mug, with your name on it, and it has been kept that long. Well, sometimes I wake up and wonder why you're being such a pig and sleeping so long. But 5 seconds later I realise your room is my study room. There are days when I come down and almost ask if you're awake, or what time you came home the previous nights. And they are also days when the NFL notifications lights up and I will think of you. Distance has been awfully mean to us both and I'll always miss you being around as a brother and a friend. But I have to learn to move forward, accept the circumstances. Because I find so much comfort knowing that God has planned your future, as well as mine. So kor, I miss you dearly, but it's for the best. Study hard, but most importantly stay close to God, because He knows you better than me ;)
Much love.
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| The family. |
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| Cousins + Grandma |
oh the cousins, they will never read this cause we don't really know each other ONLINE. But in the real world, man, we're best buddies after days. People get to know each other for a lifetime before being friends. We're just friend for a lifetime. Really, from cooking breakfast, to bathing dogs, long walks, and complaining about mothers. Hahah my 17 year old neph and cous. We 3 are unstoppable. Really. ;) Miss them to the bits but I know that God has the future planned out for every one of us, so see you both in 6 months aye? Gawai! :)
TZE JING
HEEEEY RETARD. 2012 has been so aweshum ah. Friends for barely two years but seriously, the amount of teasings I get, countless. But I know your life will be very dull without me. Oh oops, I mean the other way around. Hahah thank you for being so awesome, and all the retarded moments we have. From singing in the dewan to annoy TS to calling YP short hehe. Have fun future lawyer, love you!
YEEPEI
Ahyo, kiew ah kiew. IDK what to say la. You are like the most popular girl in school lo, pretty, everyone likes you but you think too much. Really, you are wonderful, but you don't know it. I hope you learn to learn yourself more, stop writing emo posts cause it makes people emo too. Stio reading emo books, be more confident okay haiyo. Promise me to always be happy, I like being around you cause you're shorter than me. Hahaha, and you know I love you, and your driving. ;)
TSUI SAN
HELLO DAUGHTER! 2 years classmates when everyone left :( But we had such retarded moments this year. Haha. Thanks for always tolerating my nonsense and making me shut up sometimes, and telling me when teachers are scolding. Best table mate, love youu baby.
YATKUAN
HIHIHIHIHIHIHH^^ hahaha I didn't know you earlier but it has been so awesome to know that you think i'm not retarded. Right now you are eating maggi mee on skype with Jing, so retarded. But I love you anyways, know you've been through a rough year, no worries, 2013 will be great! :)
MISS CHOO CHOO
heylo. classmate, addmath tuition buddy. You and your sister have been so nice to me, from shopping for prom dresses in KL to crazy car rides. Thank you for letting me come over before/after tuitions and the undang, thanks for helping me stay awake. Hhaha and I will miss all the retarded moments we have in class, all the crazy lame ass jokes and whatsapp convos. *SIGHS. We are so lame. BUT, hahaha, love you la. :)
JIA
in 2009 we had 3 pictures together
in 2010 we had 2
in 2012 I'm pretty sure less than 15
Yea. Thats us jia, no matter what you'll always be the best lala. Sorry for always not replying your texts back then (during running season) and taking you for granted sometimes. Hehe, you're so nice, and I wish you the best always. And thanks for the advice, and being like a big brotha. :) Stay buff. Hahaha.
VIVIEN
HI BIMBO FRIEND, omg I will never forget you and your nerd act in class, no joke. I laughed my ass off literally. And thank you for the late night talks, in Nise's house. Hahah reality hits hard. But you've always been a good friend, so thank you for spending November 12 not studying but instead coming to Pizza Uno for my birthday.
PRYA
Best friend of idk how many years, I'll always cherish the moments we have. And all the crazy times we had together, you'll always be my favourite indian. Love you prya. :)
CHENG YU WEI
Heylo cheng yu wei, I miss you and your funny laugh. Come back from camp quick. Its been an awesome year for CF eh. Really, but miss the CF meetings, your the kind of person that really knows what matters in life, in CF and although we got distracted by SPM we made it through the year. It's been great going camp, getting to know you and hahaha the Justin Bieber video we did on valentines day. Well, wishing you all the best in everything, I know you'll go places and do great stuff, amazing things for Jesus. Continue being a blessing to everyone you meet okay? You made CF 2012 unforgettable, along with every single member of CF.
CHENG YI
Another girl who has impacted my life so greatly. Your raw simplicity and honesty about life, and how you see things has changed my way of seeing things too. Being in camp with you was something cause I learnt so much. Sorry for "stealing" your best friend away, haha Clarissa is just really friendly, but i'm glad I got to earn another best friend in the process; you. You've always been there for me, and I want to thank you for always helping us stay positive in every CF meeting and gently reminding us when we go wrong. I have so much to learn from you, and I hope you do well in everything. You will continue to touch others around you I believe, continue shouting God's fame. You, shy? Nah don't think so.
ALEX, your mini head is there. Thank you for all the encouragement, and for sharing your thoughts with me. You're going to have a fine year KP. Hope that 2013 goes well for you, and I hope I can be there when you need me too. Continue shining for Jesus in everything you do bro.
EU-NISE
hello there everything buddy. I thank God for placing you in my life. I've written so many posts about you, just scroll down. Frankly, you've been through alot this year, and your faith and hope in God is something I admire. Wish the best for you in everything, and thanks for the prayers before each run. ;)
So many others who have impacted my life, but thats all for tonight. wrote till midnight, wanted it to be a new years post, but oh well, 2nd Jan 2013 it is. :)
'Till then
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