Another wave of sadness again. Yeap you realise I end up blogging when I feel so overwhelmed. Lacking faith in my future indirectly shows how much I have faith in God. Since He already knows my whole story; I am so disappointed I cannot trust Him enough. SIGHS.
My comfort today:
Philippians 4:6
New King James Version (NKJV)
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;
Favourite verse, I just wish I had the heart to take it and live it.
Dear God,
Please grant me strength to believe in the things unseen, hope for the things already prepared for me and trust / delight in You always. Uni applications and scholarship may just be a speck of what You already have in store for me. I know You have marvellous, unthinkable plans for my life. Right now I choose to believe and trust that Your timing is the best and that your plans for the future are of good and not of evil, to give me a future. Love you, forever and always.
From Kampung Speu, Cambodia
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Monday, 10 March 2014
#616
Another wave of sadness again. Yeap you realise I end up blogging when I feel so overwhelmed. Lacking faith in my future indirectly shows how much I have faith in God. Since He already knows my whole story; I am so disappointed I cannot trust Him enough. SIGHS.
My comfort today:
Philippians 4:6
New King James Version (NKJV)
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;
Favourite verse, I just wish I had the heart to take it and live it.
Dear God,
Please grant me strength to believe in the things unseen, hope for the things already prepared for me and trust / delight in You always. Uni applications and scholarship may just be a speck of what You already have in store for me. I know You have marvellous, unthinkable plans for my life. Right now I choose to believe and trust that Your timing is the best and that your plans for the future are of good and not of evil, to give me a future. Love you, forever and always.
From Kampung Speu, Cambodia
My comfort today:
Philippians 4:6
New King James Version (NKJV)
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;
Favourite verse, I just wish I had the heart to take it and live it.
Dear God,
Please grant me strength to believe in the things unseen, hope for the things already prepared for me and trust / delight in You always. Uni applications and scholarship may just be a speck of what You already have in store for me. I know You have marvellous, unthinkable plans for my life. Right now I choose to believe and trust that Your timing is the best and that your plans for the future are of good and not of evil, to give me a future. Love you, forever and always.
From Kampung Speu, Cambodia
Friday, 2 August 2013
Days like these,
I hate reading my sister's tweet and actually listening to her speak it like she was next to me.
Watching the world go by from here feels like i've been sidelined. Not a very nice feeling I tell you. Everyone back home are hanging out, finding a new girlfriend/boyf, running for president, and basically just living life... without me. I have never missed home this much either. Every night is a trip back home- I feel like they are actually really there and every morning it's the same thing. I wake up, in a hostel. In a place I can never call home. I don't like feeling this way and I know I cannot live this miserably. But however, I can never stop myself from daydreaming about home. Especially when I know I am heading home in a month's time. Sadly, I also realized that everything will be different back home (I realized this a long time ago). Everyone will be caught up in life. This I am always grateful for family. I can never describe how much I miss every single one of them.
Leaving was sort of a mixed-feelings-kinda decision. Well you see, ever since Kor left nothing was the same. After months of crying and getting over the fact. Everyone lived in routine. But we know nothing will be the same. Leftovers everyday, food untouched, always taking out... it was not a very pleasant change. But things got better I guess. It was just very different for me.. I could feel the emptiness and sadness. This adds to me losing a best dude buddy. #SIGHS. Leaving therefore was sort of like my way out, or a change. I really hope they are all doing fine back home.
I miss my life back home & I wonder if I would be enjoying myself if I lived that life.
But, thanks to God who has never left me. I believe I have been sent here for a reason. God knows why- LITERALLY. I will never regret meeting the people, places I've been too, things I've seen here. Its just that this semester, being separated from everyone, new faces, nothing normal you see. Kind of my low point right now.
Watching the world go by from here feels like i've been sidelined. Not a very nice feeling I tell you. Everyone back home are hanging out, finding a new girlfriend/boyf, running for president, and basically just living life... without me. I have never missed home this much either. Every night is a trip back home- I feel like they are actually really there and every morning it's the same thing. I wake up, in a hostel. In a place I can never call home. I don't like feeling this way and I know I cannot live this miserably. But however, I can never stop myself from daydreaming about home. Especially when I know I am heading home in a month's time. Sadly, I also realized that everything will be different back home (I realized this a long time ago). Everyone will be caught up in life. This I am always grateful for family. I can never describe how much I miss every single one of them.
Leaving was sort of a mixed-feelings-kinda decision. Well you see, ever since Kor left nothing was the same. After months of crying and getting over the fact. Everyone lived in routine. But we know nothing will be the same. Leftovers everyday, food untouched, always taking out... it was not a very pleasant change. But things got better I guess. It was just very different for me.. I could feel the emptiness and sadness. This adds to me losing a best dude buddy. #SIGHS. Leaving therefore was sort of like my way out, or a change. I really hope they are all doing fine back home.
I miss my life back home & I wonder if I would be enjoying myself if I lived that life.
But, thanks to God who has never left me. I believe I have been sent here for a reason. God knows why- LITERALLY. I will never regret meeting the people, places I've been too, things I've seen here. Its just that this semester, being separated from everyone, new faces, nothing normal you see. Kind of my low point right now.
Days like these,
I hate reading my sister's tweet and actually listening to her speak it like she was next to me.
Watching the world go by from here feels like i've been sidelined. Not a very nice feeling I tell you. Everyone back home are hanging out, finding a new girlfriend/boyf, running for president, and basically just living life... without me. I have never missed home this much either. Every night is a trip back home- I feel like they are actually really there and every morning it's the same thing. I wake up, in a hostel. In a place I can never call home. I don't like feeling this way and I know I cannot live this miserably. But however, I can never stop myself from daydreaming about home. Especially when I know I am heading home in a month's time. Sadly, I also realized that everything will be different back home (I realized this a long time ago). Everyone will be caught up in life. This I am always grateful for family. I can never describe how much I miss every single one of them.
Leaving was sort of a mixed-feelings-kinda decision. Well you see, ever since Kor left nothing was the same. After months of crying and getting over the fact. Everyone lived in routine. But we know nothing will be the same. Leftovers everyday, food untouched, always taking out... it was not a very pleasant change. But things got better I guess. It was just very different for me.. I could feel the emptiness and sadness. This adds to me losing a best dude buddy. #SIGHS. Leaving therefore was sort of like my way out, or a change. I really hope they are all doing fine back home.
I miss my life back home & I wonder if I would be enjoying myself if I lived that life.
But, thanks to God who has never left me. I believe I have been sent here for a reason. God knows why- LITERALLY. I will never regret meeting the people, places I've been too, things I've seen here. Its just that this semester, being separated from everyone, new faces, nothing normal you see. Kind of my low point right now.
Watching the world go by from here feels like i've been sidelined. Not a very nice feeling I tell you. Everyone back home are hanging out, finding a new girlfriend/boyf, running for president, and basically just living life... without me. I have never missed home this much either. Every night is a trip back home- I feel like they are actually really there and every morning it's the same thing. I wake up, in a hostel. In a place I can never call home. I don't like feeling this way and I know I cannot live this miserably. But however, I can never stop myself from daydreaming about home. Especially when I know I am heading home in a month's time. Sadly, I also realized that everything will be different back home (I realized this a long time ago). Everyone will be caught up in life. This I am always grateful for family. I can never describe how much I miss every single one of them.
Leaving was sort of a mixed-feelings-kinda decision. Well you see, ever since Kor left nothing was the same. After months of crying and getting over the fact. Everyone lived in routine. But we know nothing will be the same. Leftovers everyday, food untouched, always taking out... it was not a very pleasant change. But things got better I guess. It was just very different for me.. I could feel the emptiness and sadness. This adds to me losing a best dude buddy. #SIGHS. Leaving therefore was sort of like my way out, or a change. I really hope they are all doing fine back home.
I miss my life back home & I wonder if I would be enjoying myself if I lived that life.
But, thanks to God who has never left me. I believe I have been sent here for a reason. God knows why- LITERALLY. I will never regret meeting the people, places I've been too, things I've seen here. Its just that this semester, being separated from everyone, new faces, nothing normal you see. Kind of my low point right now.
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